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The Tiiin Commandments
written by Demsey Ube

Dapat lagi alam ni Tin kung nasaan ka lalo na kung magkasama kayo kanikanina lang.
Dapat magsasabe agad kay Tin kung magmmigrate sa ibang bansa bago maging shota.
Dapat supportive sa studies ni Tin.
Dapat close sa mga barkada at maging kabarkada rin.
Pag ayaw ni Tin, huwag nang pilitin; kundi, alam mo na kung saan ka pupulutin.
Kung game ka magpakilala sa parents ni Tin, game rin sha.
Dapat mature mag-isip. Ayaw ni Tin magalaga ng baby damulag.
Huwag magppropose kay Tin na itatanan at papaaralin ng Medicine dahil di yan effective. (Tried and tested)
Hindi papatol si Tin sa mga totoys kahit pa may back-up na friend/s, mababasted lang ng kung ilang beses.
Love tin honestly and wholly. She can compromise naman, basta wag lang maabuso at kawawain si Tin. She will love you back. Promise. (Hindi ko to inedit. Si Dems may gawa nian :)

Friday, February 25, 2005
Trust, Love and Everything Sh*tty

Currently listening to: some old school RnB remix on RX

Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:

School Productivity: 1 2 3 4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3 4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4 5
Fun: 1 2 3 4 5
Mahal: 1 2 3 4 5

It's sad when you have trust issues. Especially with your folks. As if you're the "boy who cried wolf". Only, you HAVEN'T cried wolf but they think you ARE crying wolf. Hm. I got this from the www: "A liar will not be believed, even when telling the truth." I haven't really lied before. I always tried to tell them the truth. Even the fact that I HAVE a boyfriend but then they wouldn't believe me.

Sometimes when it seems like I've done everything but to others, it still isn't enough, I just want to die.

I hate it when I want somebody to be beside me when I'm feeling down and when they can't make it and try to make up for it the next day, I try to push them away.

I hate it when my mum points out all the wrong shit that I've done. Even the simplest ones. I just want to scream my lungs out sometimes just to vent out my frustrations.

I hate it when people try to complicates REALLY SIMPLE AND TINY things. Does everything have to be such a big deal? Maybe this is the reason why there is such chaos in the world. Mistakes are being deemed as shit done on purpose. It's like an accident that you helped to happen. Whatever.

Glad I'm done with chapter 2 of my thesis and analytical chemistry written report. I hope my groupmates pass their sh*t on time. I'm proud of myself for dividing the work among us. Although the division wasn't equal AT ALL..at least I won't end up finishing our entire feasibility sh*t by myself. I plan to work on my thesis this weekend. Thank God for EDSA day, it feels like I've got all the time in the world.

My parents and I were discussing about how I'm spending my summer. I REMINDED them that I'm working. Too bad they don't believe that I can get a job anywhere else..except in my high school. So much for support. Makes me want to persevere even more. Maybe that's their purpose. Whatever. But my mum was asking me if I wanted to spend my vacation in Singapore. I could work there. It would be FASTER money. Faster money = faster evacuation. But I'd be miles away from my MF.. If I'm letting my head decide, I'd go for Singapore. But if I'm letting my heart rule, I'll submit my resume to every establishment within San Juan. I'll work two jobs if I have to just so I can earn as much.

Haven't consulted MF yet. I don't know what his reaction would be. I wonder what he'd say.. He has always been influential to me. A good one, at that. He pushes me when I'm too lazy. LOL! Glad I got him.. His birthday's just around the corner.. and I haven't got him anything yet.. I don't know what to give him.. He seems to have everything already.. I mean, he doesn't need material sh*t.. His contentment is amazing. I admire him for that. Heck. I LOVE him for that. It's just that sometimes, abstract things aren't enough..well..that's just what I think.. LOL..

I like the song that goes.. "I'd be coming home back to you.. every night.."

Tiiin* was starless at 11:21 PM

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