Saturday, December 31, 2005
Bye Bye 2005
Currently listening to: (the s0ng in my head) Michelle Branch - G0odbye t0 Y0u
Wh0a! It's the last day 0f the yeaaaaar!! Can y0u believe h0w fast the year had passed?! Just yesterday I was in Singap0re with my Ai Z's family, separated fr0m MF, trying t0 get al0ng with my c0usins well, busy acc0mplishing 0ur slides f0r hist0logy, etc etc. and n0w I'm in my last semester, thinking ab0ut my thesis, l0oking t0ward the future, c0mpleting the requirements f0r my med sch0ol application and I think my c0usins in Singap0re hate me.
Whattalife.
I can't even remember why 0r what I did.. 0r maybe it was s0mething I didn't d0? Hmm.. I really can't remember. Surely it's n0t about n0t being able t0 give them Christmas presents. Y0u see, unlike my br0ther, I d0 not have en0ugh m0ney t0 get presents f0r everyb0dy. Heck. I b0ught presents f0r my mum and dad lang. And that's it.
Aw.. I hope I get t0 talk t0 them bef0re the year ends. That way, we w0n't be faced with arguments in the c0ming year?
I'm s0 sleepy. I think I overslept. 11+ PM t0 9+ AM. Yep. I did. Rar.
I should write my thesis 0r read f0r my exams. Pif.
New year's res0lutions?
LOLx. Magpakabait pa ng 0nti. ^^ Wag mashad0ng mataray. Wag iyaken. :P Wag tamad. Wag aanga-anga 0r eeng0t-eng0t. ^^ N0 m0re regreeets. Please. What else??
I'm thinking ab0ut sending MF a message. Per0 wag nalang sigur0? Baka sabihin ginugul0 k0 lang sha ^^ Hm.. I saw him yesterday..yun back nia lang. Haha! He didn't see me. ^^ It feels different. It felt different. We never saw each 0ther again after we br0ke up.. At least f0r this year..
"Old issues are making a comeback. Take a deep breath and approach things a new way." - Why did I have t0 see y0u walking away fr0m me? Why t0day of all days? Why t0day after all th0se days? Why d0 I remember y0ur face clearly? Why?
My last m0st accurate h0roscope f0r the year:
The Bottom Line
Lately, you've been pushed past your limits. Get the word out that you need space.
In Detail
Feeling sentimental right about now is completely understandable, but you should also definitely be looking toward the future. Luckily you've got some great friends or a significant other to pull your mind (and heart) off the past and into the present. Now's an excellent time to shed some excess baggage, keeping only the valuable lessons learned and leaving the weighty part behind. Cheers to a new you!
G0odbye t0 you..
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
Fucker
Currently listening to: Trapt - Headstr0ng
Hai naku. Wala na naman ak0ng naacc0mplish. Sabagay di pa naman tap0s ang araw. Per0 fuck ha. Andameng nangyayare. Andame rin pumapas0k sa utak k0 na negative th0ughts. Such as?
1 - His sincerity. What d0es he really want fr0m me? Parang n0t real talaga.
2 - His h0nesty. Magbabayad kaya un? 0r just an0ther paasa?
Etc etc.
I d0n't get it. Per0 mer0n na sa head k0 paulit-ulit - trust your intuition. We'll see what happens nalang. Basta I w0n't d0 anything I'll regret later 0n. N0 way.
Ui at least 99 na k0.

Ayaw k0 na nga pala magedit nun GS b0ards. Sila na bahala dun ^^ Malalaki na sila ^^ Lal0 na un isang fucker d0n. Ang lake ng pr0blema amf. Basahin ni0 conversati0n namin. Ang lab0 as in.
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:35:20 PM): promse di maganda ung site
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:35:28 PM): di na RO ang dating
Tin (12/29/2005 3:35:36 PM): nagrep ak0
Tin (12/29/2005 3:35:39 PM): sa p0st mo
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:35:57 PM): wala na sinara ko na
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:36:02 PM): di ko nabasa
Tin (12/29/2005 3:36:15 PM): Hm.. I never changed the f0nt type.. R u talking ab0ut the f0nt color? All ic0ns here and pix are fr0m RO.. Can u specify what is n0t RO-related here? ^^
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:36:41 PM): ung color di bagay i mean
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:36:55 PM): pang halloween ba yan?
Tin (12/29/2005 3:36:58 PM): n0pe
Tin (12/29/2005 3:37:23 PM): e d sana nagsuggest ka nalang ng c0lor
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:37:29 PM): di bagay font and color halloween ang dating
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:37:49 PM): ano ba ang initial post mo sa thread na yun?
Tin (12/29/2005 3:37:55 PM): ?
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:37:58 PM): nag comment lang ako na di nga bagay
Tin (12/29/2005 3:38:08 PM): uu nga
Tin (12/29/2005 3:38:11 PM): kaya nga suggest ka ng c0lor
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:38:15 PM): o un naman pala eh
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:38:16 PM): tapos
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:38:20 PM): end of conersation
Tin (12/29/2005 3:38:27 PM): ??
Tin (12/29/2005 3:38:28 PM): OMG
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:38:49 PM): eh dami mo pa kasi sinasabi. tama na
Tin (12/29/2005 3:38:57 PM): wala naman ak0 sinasbe
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:00 PM): ang hinihingi k0 lang
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:02 PM): suggesti0n
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:04 PM): na color
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:08 PM): tas ikaw galit ka jan agad
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:10 PM): ewan sa u
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:39:15 PM): tsk tsk tsk
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:18 PM): kung ayaw m0 ko kausap wag ka magppm
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:39:21 PM): paano mo na naman nalaman na galit ako?
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:39:25 PM): yan ka na naman eh
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:33 PM): tangina
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:39:41 PM): wala akong sinsasabing ayaw kita kausap
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:39:43 PM): sino tangina?
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:49 PM): Tin: kaya nga suggest ka ng c0lor Chardae: o un naman pala eh Chardae: tapos Chardae: end of conersation Tin: ??
Tin (12/29/2005 3:39:55 PM): 0 ayan
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:40:05 PM): o sinabi ko ba na ayaw kita kausap?
Tin (12/29/2005 3:40:08 PM): sasabihan m0 kong end 0f conversation kinakausap kita ng maay0s
Tin (12/29/2005 3:40:09 PM): wtf
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:40:45 PM): ewan ko sa iyo
Tin (12/29/2005 3:40:54 PM): ewan din
Chardae (12/29/2005 3:41:21 PM):
Chardae (12/29/2005 4:50:18 PM): ako ba yang finger na yan ha?
Obvious ba?
Palibhasa kase, basted. ,,|,,^_^
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
W0rth It All?
Currently listening to: Creed - One Last Breath
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4
5 *My thesis is finally g0ing s0mewhere. 0r s0 I think..
Angelic Deeds: 1 2
3 4 5 *Hmm..
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5 *Hmmmmm..
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5 *Ah..makes me feel g0od about myself..
Nakabili na k0 ng pangkulungan ng jaga's k0. Bukas I shall assemble it. ^^
I still dunn0 what kind 0f help I want t0 ask dun sa d0ctor sa UP. I have J0se t0 help me with the cervical disl0cation. I can d0 the 1000 cell c0unt by myself. Ang hard/expensive part lang ata yun fetal calf serum f0r the extracti0n of the b0ne marrow? I shall read m0re about it t0morrow. Mer0n kayang fetal calf serum sa school? Hmm.. Magttext nalang ak0 kay Ma'am Jacint0 to ask. ^^ Tas sa staining, may Giemsa sa school.. may isa pang kelangan.. Van s0mething.. basta s0unds German.
Bukas ak0 magtotod0 gawa. Sinisipag aketch ^^ Dapat talaga ngaun gabi e I feel h0t. As in nilalagnat. Naulanan kase me :( Sabe na nga ba dapat nagdala na me ng pay0ng. Eh eh eh. Tamad eh. ^^
Yikes! Mulawin. Eww. Itur0k m0 ang iy0ng ugatpak sa iy0ng gulugud or is it guludgud? Whatever. Anu bang mga werds y0n?? Rar.
Haiz. I had fun but n0w I'm tired. Uh 0h.. Slipping alert..
H0ld me n0w..
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Monday, December 26, 2005
B-O-R-E-D. Spell it wit me.
Currently listening to: Sandwich - Masilungan
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4 5 *Wala bang ZERO??
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5 *Wh0 y0u callin bad??
Fun: 1 2
3 4 5
I w0ke up late. Buti ginising :X Wak0k0! Ganda ng m0rnings k0 :">
Pur0 YM em0's amf. Rar.
Nakabuy me ng cute na blazer kanina. Asteeg ichura nia. Hmm.. Aun lang..
Sabe k0 magtthesis me ngaun, ala pa me nigagawa. :(
I'm s0 tamad. Haiz. Wtf is wr0ng wit me.. kala k0 ba inspired ak0?? EXpired ata. Ngyahaha!! Basta. Ang gust0 ko lang gawin..magdesign ng virtual stuff. Aun lang.
Can see y0u, I see y0u, can I see y0u now..
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Sunday, December 25, 2005
Happy Christmas!
Currently listening to: Acceptance - S0 C0ntagi0us
c0uld this be 0ut of line, t0 say y0u're the only 0ne, breakin me d0wn like this.. y0u're the 0nly one, i will take a sh0t on.. keep me hangin' 0n.. s0 contagiously.. i kn0w it's crazy but i'm h0ping t0.. t0 take a h0ld of you..Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2
3 4 5
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5Haiz. I t0ld my mum ab0ut 'my' guyz.. I mean un mga pr0bs with them and stuff. Aun.. 0kei naman.. Hmm.. Wala lang..
Grabe t0day.. I mean, yesterday. We w0ke up early kase ang plan sasama sa 0ffice ni mama para derech0 papuntang sementery0 to see Amah. Sabe sandali lang daw dun. Eh grabe. 12pm na andun pa din kame. Nakasleep nga ak0 sa car eh habang ang kapatid k0 naman ay nagwawala. Ngyaha. Mainipin kase. Tas aun natul0y naman kami kay Amah per0 saglit lang. Per0 pede na. I'd like t0 visit her every Christmas and on other 0rdinary days kung p0ssible, when I'm 0lder. ^^
And I'd like t0 have a pink car ^^
I better better better start 0n my thesis!! OMG!! Starting later. Pramis. Bawas ragna naman pleaaaase T_T Speaking 0f Ragna, mag 99 na sin X k0. SHEEEEEET!! Ngyaha. Tap0s tignan ni0 pala un ginawa k0 sa GS b0ards MUHAHA!! Wala lang. Em0 m0de lang.. Inspired *_* http://godstrength.owns.it
Hmm..
What else?
Jelly kay Gyv.. Tsk tsk.. Baaad.
Tas yun W0lf people.. OMG. They keep calling me Mrs. Shakur.. RAR! As if that's funny?! Grr talaga. Tas s0me of them are asking questi0ns that would make 0ne think na I'm bad. OMG talaga. It was a mistake t0 bec0me cl0se to the WOLF. Grr. That's hopefully the last thing I would regret f0r this year. Please please. T_T
Thesis m0de na pramis. Paggising k0 tom. ^^
Ah luv y'all. ^^
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
Just Live It
Currently listening to: Francis M - Superpr0xy2k6
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1
2 3 4 5
Fun: 1 2
3 4 5
What t0 write..
I..
Am fine.
Hehe! I dunn0 what t0 write about.. Hmm..
I've been busy with n0thing and everything. I've been sleeping late d0ing whatever I feel like d0ing. I'm sick. In the head.
I'm reading 'I Kissed Dating G0odbye' by J0shua Harris. Yep. Back t0 books.
Haven't started on my thesis. I sh0uld. I kn0w I should. S0on soon.
It's alm0st Christmas. And s0on en0ugh the year would have ended. Time t0 do m0re contemplating.
Am I trying t0 live my life?
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Monday, December 19, 2005
Twinkle
Currently listening to: Natalie Imbruglia - Shiver
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5
Fun: 1 2
3 4 5
Amf. This day is the m0st unpr0ductive day ever. And the m0st boring.
Anu na naman baaa.
I have Z t0 go Christmas shopping but then..umiiral kakuriputan k0. Amfufu.
Anu buzz. Ewan. Bahala na.
Weee! F0r the first time, nakasama ak0 sa birthday party ng barkada. Kahit Cinderella time pa rin. W0rse, actually. 8pm?! OMG. Casper g0t until 10pm pa nga eh. Kase daw he was 10 when he died 0r something. Ak0?? I'm still alive. Wtf's the c0nnecti0n with 8pm?? LOL. Anyway, at least pinayagan.
Mark was asking me kung an0 ba raw gift gust0 k0 for Christmas. I mean, 0kei, I kn0w he's very well paid n0w and I can ask him f0r alm0st anything. Per0 what I want f0r Christmas cann0t be b0ught with Z.
S0 what d0 I ant?
A bit 0f liberty and trust - from my parents. Yun na pinakabest Christmas gift ever.
Totoo lang minsan, naaawa nalang talaga ak0 sa sarili k0. Ak0 pinakamatanda sa friends k0 sa school, ak0 pa t0ng hindi pede sa mga malayuan and gabihang gimik. Hindi naman sa gust0 kong wag na k0ng pakielaman kase alam k0 naman na para sa akin lang yun kaya di ak0 mashad0ng pinapayagan. Alam m0 un.. k0nting luwag lang naman.. maenj0y ko naman ng onti buhay k0. Ngyahaha. Fuck.
Super patap0n thesis k0. Kelangan k0 na talagang maasikas0 yun. Pifff. Tas tas waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Ewan.
Hmm. Nasasad ak0 sa nangyare sa guild namin sa 0din. Breakguild shit na. Kasalanan k0 ba yun? Sumusun0d lang naman ak0 e. Sabe nia sabihin k0 daw kupal si r0i. S0 I did. Tas aun. Gera na. Mali naman sila pareh0 dun. Para sa akin. Kase naman yun isa isip bata, tas yun isa pumat0l pa. S0 alam m0 yun. Ngyaha. Watever. Ay0ko na mainvolve shit sa mga ganyan.
Lar0 nalang tay0. Duh buzz. Nac0cornyhan ak0 sa life k0 ngaun. Shet. Ewan why per0 parang alang thrill. Gust0 k0 may mangyare namang maganda. Yung kakaiba. Yung ngaun palang mangyayari ever. T0too lang. Iniintay k0 na may lumapit sa parents k0 para magsabe na gust0 nila manligaw 0fficially. Per0 parang lahat tak0t. Wahaha!! Baka daw mayurakan ang kanilang pagkata0. LOL. Y0u guys make it s0und like napakasama ng parents k0. Inde naman sila masama, indi rin sila matap0bre. Mashad0 lang mataas sigur0 ang expectati0ns at gust0 inchek. Per0 maeelib talaga ak0 kung may makalapit. Ngyaha!
Christmas Wishlist!! An0 bang gust0 ko haaaa!! OMG OMG. Bibili pa nga pala ak0 ng pang exchange gift. Taeness. Per0 inde nga.. Material shit na I want.. :
1. N0kia 6111
2. H0nda or Mazda3
3. Pantie briefs ng superher0es or any cart0on character
4. D0ggieee!!
5. B0ho skirts. Flip fl0pz. Shirts.
Per0 bastaaaaaaa. Liberty and TRUST.
Pandaren? Ngyaha. Ewaaan k0 pa. T0o fast t0o furious eh. Wahaha!!
Wooohooo!! Cia0!!
PS. Latest Gundam addition:
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
N0t Quite the Same
Currently listening to: MYMP - Constantly
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2
3 4 5 *Tin, you are NOT reading. /e1
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5 *Always been bad.
Fun: 1 2 3
4 5
Yikes. I wanna study but I dun wanna study. Ngyaha. Weird fcuk.
What's on my mind? It's cha0tic in there. Better n0t j0in in. ^^
0kei, let's see. There's stuff about Ragnarok, school, family, the future, etc etc..
There are a l0t of questi0ns.. great issues involving trust. This one bothers me the m0st right now. Wh0 am I supposed t0 listen to? Wh0 am I supp0sed to trust? Wh0 am I supposed t0 believe? What d0 I want t0 happen? What d0 I want t0 get? I kn0w the answer t0 my last Q pala - nothing. I am n0t meaning t0 get anything. I'm just neutral right n0w. I'm just g0ing with the fl0w. H0pe that d0esn't get me in tr0uble.
D0 I want t0 be left al0ne? I kn0w I hate being al0ne. But I kn0w I d0n't want to be in a crystal ball of s0me sort. I am already in 0ne.
The 0nly thing that's lacking is sn0w.
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Intellectualizing
Currently listening to: Thursday - Lan Curtis
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1
2 3 4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2
3 4 5
Fun: 1 2 3
4 5
WTF am I d0ing? /swt
I'm c0nfused.. Really.. What's g0ing on? /hmm
Please.. I d0n't want any trouble.. /sob
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Monday, December 12, 2005
G0od Material
Currently listening to: Param0re - My Heart
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5 *Went t0 my UST interview..I shall tell you m0re about it bel0w.
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5 *I haven't been mataray t0day ngyaha! D0es that c0unt?
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5 *Dirty talking as usual ^^
Fun: 1 2 3
4 5 *Quite an experience.. I shall n0t try it again. Wak0k0!
0kei. I was quite nerv0us bef0re I left f0r UST t0day. I h0nestly d0 not want t0 g0 there f0r Medicine, in the first place, but I th0ught I'll s0meh0w satisfy my mum's wishes by at least trying t0 get int0 that school. S0 there I was, sitting 0n the s0fa waiting f0r s0me s0rt of sign that I was waiting in the right place. OMG. Their 0ffice gurls wouldn't start catering t0 us until it was exactly 8am! WTF was that?!
Anyway, my first interview was with a very nice d0ctor. He's a bit 0ld but his sense of hum0r was still very much intact. I enj0yed talking t0 him and when he said I could ask him any questi0n, I asked if he enj0ys being a d0ctor. He said that in terms of relieving patients 0f their suffering, he enj0ys being a d0ctor immensely. But when it c0mes t0 the salary, d0ctors d0 not earn much but he says his family lives a m0dest life and that's fine with him. My sentiments exactly. He inspired me. ^^ And then he said that I was 'g0od material f0r the c0llege' and that he is l0oking f0rward t0 see me in their med sch0ol.
The sec0nd interview was super.. blah.. I dunn0 h0w to describe it. When I first entered the r0om, I wasn't sure if he was a d0ctor because he didn't l0ok like 0ne. Basta he didn't l0ok like the pers0n wh0's supp0sed t0 d0 interviews. Anyway, he's super angas. Kakainis. Ruined my disposition. I saw the difference between a d0ctor wh0 wants t0 be a d0ctor f0r the pr0fessi0n and a d0ctor wh0 wants t0 be a d0ctor f0r the title. Hmf. He sucks.
Hmm.. There g0es that 'gullible' thing again..
gul·li·ble
adj.
Easily deceived or duped.
Kawawa naman ak0.. /pif
Nawalan ak0 gana..
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Sunday, December 11, 2005
Stay With Me
This is what I need.. Please..
Currently listening to: Param0re - My Heart
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4
5 *Took the NMAT t0day..It went pretty well..0r so I hope it did ^^
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3 4
5 *I attended mass f0r the first time in, what, alm0st a year.. I'm inspired.. This actually w0rks f0r me.. ^^
Devilish Acts: 1
2 3 4 5 *Just a few dirty talking..n0t too evil..^^
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5 *Heck. I'm happy!! I'm tired but I'm happy!! ^^
Waw. Kakaiba. Pramiz. Tired ak0 s0bra as in papikit na mata k0 ngaun per0 et0 ak0. Nagiintay ng milagr0. Ngyaha. Inde naman milagr0 talaga.. M0re of like biyaya. ^^
*_* Starry-eyed..
Kakapag0d grabe. Sun0d-sun0d. Tom0rrow na un interview k0 f0r UST med school. Yikez.. G0od luck t0 me. ^^ Sana maaga matap0s para makarest pa ak0 after in case may pas0k pa ng Tuesday.
Kung ala naman, e di ay0s! Ngyaha! Pwede magshopping 0 kaya magliwaliw.. Tas regular classes.. tas Thursday ppuntang National Museum para magpaidentify ng plant k0 pang thesis.. Sa Tuesday sigur0 kung ala pas0k, bibili nalang pala ak0 ng pang cage ng daga k0. ^^
Dami dapat gawin.. Kaya k0 t0.. Basta anjan ka lang sa tabi k0.. ^^
My heart, it beats, beats f0r only you..
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Monday, December 05, 2005
Maybe You're my Unfinished Business
Currently listening to: 6 Cycle Mind - Sandalan
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5 *Alm0st d0ne with my clearance thing. /no1
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3 4
5 *Hey, n0 wild shit f0r me t0day ^^
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4 5 *Okei, maybe I was a teeny bit wild..
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5 *I had l0tsa fun! ^^
I went 0ut on a m0vie date with T0yz this aftern0on. N0rmally, I w0uldn't g0 anywhere else when I have my peri0d but I figured that I couldn't be scared because of my peri0d all of my life. I t0ok the risk and it was SUPER worth it.
The m0vie, Just Like Heaven, served as an eye-opener f0r me. It was just what I needed during these depressing days. Okei. No spoilers. Just g0 see it. Per0 if there's one thing I learned fr0m that m0vie, it's that God's plan is God's plan. There may be circumstances that may put spice in h0w to get t0 the end of the plan but what's meant t0 happen will still happen.
Haiz. Gives me h0pe. ^^
Cause I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today
Take this music and use it, let it take you away
And be hopeful, hopeful, and He'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but - that's okay
Just be hopeful
Ayun lang. ^^ Basta. G0 see Just Like Heaven!! Hindi na bag0 para sabihin k0ng iniyakan k0 yung m0vie. Lahat naman iniiyakan k0 eh!! Hahaha!! IYAKEN!! WOOT!! ^^
0 sha. Time t0 study.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MERRIE!!PS. Check out my ph0to! It was taken on grad pict0rial day. F0r the first time, I l0ok like a REAL Chanese. ^^
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Friday, December 02, 2005
Uninspired
Currently listening to: Matchbook Romance - If All Else Fails
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5 *I requested for my transcript and I've started getting signatures for my good moral character shit..
Angelic Deeds: 1 2
3 4 5 *Giving myself s0me credit even if I kn0w very well that I d0n't deserve it.
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5 *Play fire with fire. Good j0b, a55h0le.
Fun: 1 2 3
4 5 *Pic taking was fun..
I just don't know what to do with myself.
Sometimes it's so hard for me to believe what I hear. 'To see is to believe' so they say. H0w can I ever see if I don't give them a chance? How could I ever get a chance to see if I'm n0t given the chance to see? N0nsense.
WTF is the problem?? WTF is MY problem?? Liberty?! I'm never g0nna get it. Too many br0ken pr0mises leads to mistrust. What d0 I plan to do about it?? NOTHING. Why?? Because I'm weak. I have n0 say in this world. I have n0 say in my fucking life. I never get to choose. What I have to wear is ch0sen for me. What time I sleep is dictated up0n me. When I g0 out and wh0 I should g0 out with is ch0sen f0r me. Which school I g0 to is ch0sen for me. What I want is imp0sed up0n me. Ha-ha. S0 much f0r liberty.
Maybe the reas0n why I don't want a commitment or make that REASONS why I d0n't want a commitment are n0. 1: I d0n't want t0 make a fucking mistake again or make a fucking fool of myself f0r falling f0r the fucking wr0ng guy f0r the fucking nth time. N0. 2: I d0n't want my supp0sed partner t0 take whatever liberty I have left - that is IF I have ANY of it left.
I feel like a fucking failure. Yes, I'm about to graduate in a fucking few m0nths (or s0 I think) and I'm pr0bably the sec0nd of the Cheng clan wh0 has n0t failed any fucking subject in her entire c0llege life. And I'm fucking decided t0 go to med school but am I fucking HAPPY?! AM I?!
Give me fucking liberty. 0r give me fucking peace.
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