Monday, January 23, 2006
SINUNGALING?
Currently listening to: Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're G0ing D0wn
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4
5 Pumunta ak0 ng school para patayin un mga daga. TRUE.
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3 4 5 Kung ikaw ba naman salubungin ng SINUNGALING. SARAP!! TRUE.
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5 Nakasapak ako uli ng pader. SUPER SARAP. TRUE.
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5 Ang saya putangina. Ang SAYA SAYA NOH.
Anu ba yun?? Dahil ba kasama k0 si Perbert nun pumunta ak0ng BFAD? Kasama k0 naman si EARL din ah. TRUE. Tanungin ni0 pa. Tanginang buhay t0.
Anu pa bang gust0 ni0 mabasa dit0?? I have sex everyday with different people that's why I go h0me late. I don't like condoms so I pr0bably have AIDS by n0w. That's what I get paid f0r. Ang dami k0 ngang pera shet. Nanghihingi pa k0 araw-araw ng ba0n. Na patay na patay ang magulang k0 na bawasan kase daw baka subra subra. Aba'y sige lang!! Isang araw sigur0 inde na lang ak0 makakauwi. O kaya malulub0g sa kauutang. I d0 drugs nga pala kaya ala k0 naiip0n. Yun mga pinapabili k0ng syringe indi talaga para sa thesis un. Para sa drugs yun. Anu pa ba?? Kaya rin ak0 ginagabi kase nakikipaginuman ak0 sa bar. Trabah0 k0 rin kase yun. Yung nittable ak0. An0 pa ba?? ANO PA?!
Putangina. Wala na ba talagang privacy sa mund0??
Tanga pala ak0 eh n0h. Na sa internet t0ng bl0g k0 malamang kahit sin0ng may internet may access dit0. Per0 naman. NAMAN. Putangina talaga. Kelangan bang pati nanay k0 alam t0??
Nasisiyahan ka ba?? MASAYA KA BA?!
Hayaan m0. Darating ang araw bubulagta nalang ak0. Hindi na sigur0 kay0 magtataka kung bakit.
Kung magtataka ka pa, malamang nga wala kang l0gic.
O kaya kinain ka na ng bu0 ng paran0ia mo.
Fucking life.
Ip0sas k0 nalang kaya sarili k0 sa kama?? Tas dun nalang sigur0 ak0 maddedz. At least malamb0t yun higaan.
Tangina. Sawang-sawa na k0.
Kanin0 bang kasalanan t0?? Sabe k0 ipapakilala k0 tas ayaw. Ayaw ni0 wag. Tas tangina sasabihan ak0ng sinungaling. FUCK.
Ewan k0 na talaga. SAWANG-SAWANG-SAWA na ak0.
Ay0ko na dit0.
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Friday, January 20, 2006
Kahit Pa Ikaw Lang at Ak0
Currently listening to: Hale - Kahit Pa
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4
5 I went t0 the National Museum to look for Taua-taua. Quite effective.
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5 Hmm..
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5 I'm as mean as I can be - stalker style. And I l0ve it. /gg
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5 Tired but I'm happy ^^
I had meant t0 post this the other day when I went to pick up my mice. Perbert was with me. We met at Festival Mall and walked to BFAD. Turned out my boxes weren't good enough to make them okei to be transported for hours. Went back to Festival Mall to buy picnic baskets. Walked back to BFAD to get the mice. Took the bus and made it stink with mice poo and pee. It was embarassing because a lot of people were complaining about the smell. Missed our stop so we ended up in Cubao. We had to ride back to Galleria but the bus took the flyover so we had to walk to Galleria. Took a bus to San Juan. It was very tiring and quite an adventure but I had fun getting lost with him. I didn't feel scared that I didn't kn0w where I was; though, ordinarily, I would've been close to tears. And he wasn't emabarassed about my mice. He was very nice about it. And I l0ve him for that. ^^
L-O-V-E. Such a big word that it scares me sometimes.
Don't say it when you don't mean it, right? ^^
20th. The first. Time well spent. ^^
Perbert gave me a small black f0rest cake. ^^ As usual, when I g0t home, I was questioned about it. And I had to make them remember certain people so they'd see the connection. I think my dad was kinda mad about it. Not the cake. About the fact that this guy's from AMA and I'm from PLM, he's like 'h0w the fuck did you kn0w this guy?!'. Anyway, I asked them if they would allow me to introduce guys to them but they said I was 'too young' for that so there. I guess they'd never know about my guys until they think that I'm not too young anymore. LOL.
I'm glad my family is helping me out with my thesis. My dadi, mami and yaya built this long mice cage with 6 divisions. It carries 30 mice. And I no longer have to worry about losing any mouse. I hope I finish my thesis on time - paperwork included. Plus I hope our professors would be so busy with other things they won't be able to attend our classes. That way I don't have to miss out on lectures and stuff.
Time f0r bed.
Happy. ^^
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Monday, January 16, 2006
WTF
Currently listening to: Meredith Brooks - Bitch
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4 5
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5I can't believe it. I wasted half of January waiting for nothing. I ordered fetal calf serum earlier this month and I was told that it would arrive on the 17th. Tomorrow. I called today to find out that it isn't on its way. Much worse, it is UNavailable. How could that have happen?? I thought she said to WAIT for it?? Fucking liar. She even made me swear that I'd pay for it. It's Php2,500 for 100mg. Fucked up. Now I don't have anything to use.
Before this thesis thing started I swore to myself that I will not make up data or fabricate any part of my paper. I think that would have to be broken now. T_T
So fucked up.
I have exactly 2 weeks left to finish everything. Will I make it? I better. If not, I'm so screwed I'd rather be dead.
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
You're the Only One Breaking Me Down Like This
Currently listening to: Acceptance - So Contagious
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4 5
Fun: 1 2 3 4 5
Nakakalungkot. Nagtanong ako kay mama kung panu ba pag may gustong magpakilala sa kanila. Ang unang tanong nia: "Hua na nanaman ba?" Sumunod: "San nag-aaral?" At ang pahuling salita: "Wag na Tintin. Bata ka pa. ..."
Kung ikukumpara ko na naman ang sarili ko sa mga pinsan ko, wala rin namang saysay. Ang punto ko lang naman, wag nalang niang sabihin na bata pa ako. Yung pinsan ko nga sa SG na mas bata sa akin, boto sha na nagpakilala pa yun lalake sa Ai ko. Sinabe pa niang mas maganda nga yung ganun. Bakit? Kase inchek?
Kakasawa na. Hanggang kelan ba nila hawak ang galaw ko?
Mejo natutuwa ako sa sarili ko ngaun. Natapos ko na sa wakas un mga report ko sa Biotech chaka Rad. Ginagawa ko ngaun ung thesis ko kaso lang kasi parang nangangamote utak ko. ^^ Baka inaantok na pero parang indi naman. Ewan ko ba.
Bukas mag-aaral ako para sa Physio. Tapos un matitirang oras ipangaadvance ko sa ibang subjects.
Ang bilis ng oras. Kanina lang 7:40pm palang. Sabe ko sa sarili ko andami ko pang magagawa. Ngaun 12:14am na ang nadagdag ko lang sa thesis ko isang paragraph. Ang hirap mag-isip pag andaming ibang iniisip. ^^ Sabay andaming ibang nakakagulo tulad nitong blogger. ^^
Bukas ko na nga pala makukuha un fetal calf serum ko pang thesis. Makakapagsimula na pala ako. Hmm. Sana matapos ko to lahat at umabot sa pasahan. ^^
Naiisip ko tuloy ngaun, hindi talaga nakakabuti para sa bata na ihatid sundo sa eskwela tas pag tuntong ng kolehiyo chaka hahayaang sumakay mag-isa. Tignan mo ako ngaun, wala akong alam puntahan kundi yung nadadaanan ng bus na sinasakyan ko papunta't pabalik ng eskwelahan. Dahil dun din duwag ako makipag-usap sa ibang tao o kaya subukan pumuntapunta sa ibang lugar nang mag-isa. ^^
Di bale na un. Malaki na 'ko. Kaya ko 'to. ^^
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Friday, January 06, 2006
T0 Each Her 0wn
Currently listening to: Acceptance - Seeing is Believing
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4
5Angelic Deeds: 1 2
3 4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5 *Yikez!
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5People are indeed unique fr0m each other.
I was watching Judging Amy on Hallmark (please c0rrect me if I g0t the channel wr0ng LOL) after dinner. 0ne scene was when the guy tried t0 make 0ut with her, she gives in a little but then she st0ps. In the next scene, she tries 'again' by admitting t0 the guy that she is attracted t0 him but just c0uldn't d0 it.
Amy: If we d0 this, it w0uld mean s0mething. The things is, I d0n't want it t0 mean anything.
Guy: I like the 'It's n0t you, it's me' explanati0n better.Awtz?
Let's face it. S0me gurls d0 like keeping FB's or Fcuk Buddies rather than BF's or B0y Friends. Well, why n0t? This way, 0ne d0esn't have t0 get the wh0le package - n0 commitment, n0 tr0uble, n0 headache - just the t0y that gives her the satisfacti0n she needs, in bed. Maybe that's all she needs. Pr0blem is when her FB has several 0ther FB's and one of his FB's have s0me STD which he transfers t0 her, eventually. And even w0rse, what if she gets preggy? There g0es all the satisfacti0n. ^^
Lust. Is it n0t? It's when 0ne is drawn t0 a pers0n by whatever h0rm0nes 0nly wanting t0 get cl0se t0 that pers0n. Wanting t0 kiss, t0uch and taste. And that's all there is. After that, it's as if n0thing special has happened.
I th0ught G0d had wanted such an act t0 be c0nsidered as s0mething sacred 0r cl0se to that. S0mething t0 be d0ne with s0meone t0 whom 0ne is attached t0 or b0und t0 by the sanctity 0f h0ly matrim0ny. S0mething d0ne n0t f0r pleasure but f0r repr0ducti0n - f0r the miracle 0f life. S0mething d0ne out of l0ve.
I kn0w of s0meone wh0 was really in l0ve with her b0yfriend. They were 'making l0ve', as she likes t0 call it because she says she d0es it 0nly when she l0ves the pers0n she's d0ing it with, and right bef0re climax she said 'I l0ve you' t0 his face. He laughed. Until t0day, I w0nder h0w 0r if she ever g0t over/will ever get 0ver that. Imagine that. I c0uldn't explain the guy's reacti0n. I guess I will never be an expert 0n these things. Try c0nsulting about other matters - preferably th0se far fr0m the bedside. LOL
0n a lighter n0te, my m0m was telling me that her s0n went 0ut on a lunch date with this gurl. After her st0ry, I just had t0 ask why he g0t t0 date while I c0uld n0t. The answer was 'Kase babae ka. Mer0ng mawawala.' I had t0 c0rrect her l0gic. 'Baka ibig m0 sabihin, baka may madagdag?' LOL! S0 sad that they think I am super f0olish t0 not kn0w what I should and sh0uld n0t do. And I all0w them t0 think that I'm still that little gurl with the l0ose-band PJ's jumping ar0und our c0mpound making my PJ's fall t0 my ankles.
They d0n't kn0w me. They d0n't kn0w what I have d0ne 0r have been through. They d0n't kn0w shit ab0ut me. They d0n't have t0. Trust me. I kn0w what I'm d0ing. And I'm as afraid as they are ab0ut making a wr0ng move.
Give me anything.. Anything t0 keep me breathing..
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Monday, January 02, 2006
Tired 0f It All
Currently listening to: Evanescence - My Imm0rtal
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2
3 4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5 *Bukas pa t0 full f0rce.
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5Haiz. Kakasawa na sa t0too lang. It's the same shit 0ver and 0ver but it hurts me just the same. Aun nga. Same nga sha. LOL. Waaaaa.
S0meday.. I'll really get 0ver it.. H0w many times have I said this?! LOL. Fuck it. Basta yun na yun. Kakahiya amf. T_T
Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz. Anu bang 2nd day 0f the year t0. /e5
ALLISON
Above all, you've been a wonderful
father.
PARRISH
I haven't been the father to you
that --
ALLISON
That you've been to Susan?
PARRISH
I wasn't going to say --
ALLISON
But that's what you were thinking.
And that's okay. Because I know you
love me. Not like it is with Susan,
the way your eyes light up when she
comes in the room and the way she
always gets a laugh out of you, as
opposed to me when I walk in a room
and that look comes over your face,
"What does she want now?"
- Meet J0e Black
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
It's N0t About the Z
Currently listening to: Creed - Higher
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1
2 3 4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3 4
5Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5Fun: 1 2 3 4
5Nangapitbahay ak0 kanina. Shempre jan lang at shempre 0nce in a blue m0on lang un. wak0k0! Aun, f0r the first time, I heard my nephew speak. LOL!! Wala lang. Napakailag kase sa ta0 nun. ^^ Anyway, natan0ng tul0y ak0 ng mga pinsan k0 about my sch0oling. And nalaman nilang magggrad na ak0 this semester at mag mmed sa next sch0ol year.
Sabi ni Mike ang tanga k0 daw, I sh0uld've taken up nursing. Sabe rin ni Aku T0to na un mga d0ctors ngaun nagnnursing. Sabe k0 naman, mga gust0 naman kase nun mag w0rk abr0ad. Sabe k0, I d0n't need the Z. I didn't have t0 explain further. Y0u very well kn0w that th0se were Chengs I was talking t0. Never explain t0 a Cheng. They are as hard-headed as they can be. LOL! Anyway, sabe ni Bare, sa kakalipat ng mga ta0 sa abr0ad, madami nang trabah0 maiiwan dit0 sa Pinas. K0ntra si Mike: baba naman ng sweld0.
It's n0t about the Z, darling. I want t0 be a d0ctor t0 help people. I dunn0 h0w many times I have t0 say that. But I guess I won't be able t0 prove it until I start practicing the pr0fessi0n and actually helping other people. And I really d0n't have plans 0f leaving my c0untry. This is where I shall die. Period. ^^
H0nestly, gust0 k0 talaga iintr0duce kela Mami si Pandaren.. Kas0 lang kase.. Natatak0t talaga ak0.. Baka ma-ala-MF.. T_T Ayaw k0 na p0 madep0rt.. S0 sad.. :( Baka mag-ala-c0mmercial pa si Mami.. "Hindi Chanese!!" LOL!
Can you take me higher?
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