Thursday, June 22, 2006
Power Overwhelming
Currently listening to: Jay Z and LP - Numb Encore (do you want more?)
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3 4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5Fun: 1 2 3 4
5Perhaps I have become a poor judge of character over time. Or maybe, I just want to give people the benefit of the doubt and let them destroy that for themselves. Just like Jean-Jacques Rousseau who believed that man is naturally good but is corrupted by society's false values. O ha. Di ba mareach?! Hahahaha!
Anyway, I was on my way to Unimart this afternoon to meet my mami. Before that pala, I texted dadee that I was going to be late plus some cheesy stuff. LOL And dahil napakagaling ko talagang bata, nasend ko kay MAMI!! Hahahaha!! Ayun. Thank God for maling akala hahaha nagreply lang sha with 'Oa'. Hahaha! On my way home, T texted me sabe last na daw un, sori, etc etc. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na ang kahulugan pala ng katagang 'last' ay 'infinite'. LOL. Ilang libong beses ko na ba narinig yun?! Exag ba? Hahaha! O de how many tens nalang. Hahaha!
Mga tao talaga. Why do some people hurt you on purpose and then apologize afterwards just to be able to clean the slate and do it again?
School sucks. Hahaha! Biglang ganun. Wala lang. Parang tinatamad pa rin ako. Pero I know naman na next week, I really have to start working on it. So far, mga quizzes ko puro 60% lang ang nakkuha ko. Can you believe?! LOL Hai. Basta next week, we got exams na so I really have to studyyy.
Aww..Imma miss it. :(
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Take the Fall and Let It Ride
Currently listening to:Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5
Fun: 1 2 3
4 5
O ha. Living in moderation. True Buddhist. LOL. 'TF?!
School was boring today. It's so basic. Angaaas!! Hahaha! Di. Joke lang yun. Pero basic talaga yun tinuturo. Actually, inde tinuturo kase sinasabe lang nia kung ano specifically about the terms yun kelangan namin maaral. Example, sabihin nia cell parts, know the function, etc etc. Walang info. LOL So sariling sikap itetch. Oh well. Sanay na? :P I'm glad madalas ako absent during my undergrad years dahil naturuan ko ang sarili ko na mag-aral mag-isa. :P
Tagal ko di nagblog noh?! Kala mo napakabusy. Indi naman mashado e. Tinatamad lang magsulat, I guess. Chaka basta. May mga bagay lang ako na inuuna kesa sa blog. O ha. Whatever happened to the saying, "Never let someone be your priority, while allowing yourself to be just their opinion"? LOL Bye-bye beliefs na naman ba?! :P
Ayun. Mejo active ang buhay ko ngayon. Hahaha! Blow-by-blow?
Saturday. BTA event ng Ragnarok sa Megatrade hall 2. Pero initially, may lakad ang DK guild, parang nacancel dahil nga magBBTA ang iba sa kanila. Plus, sila O nun gabi, indi nagssabe kung tutuloy pa ba sila sumabay. Tas si T nangungulit na ssunduin daw ako in the morning. Tas nagkaasaran kame ni M kaya biglang sabaysabay na kame nila O the next day. Tas pagdating na pagdating ni T, sabe agad sa akin, 'Usap nga tayo sandali." O de buzz?! Shuta? Hahaha! Naasar na ako dun palang pero shempre alam mo naman ako. Ayaw mamahiya kahit ako na maiipit na ewan. Tas aun hanggang sa anu anu na lumalabas sa mga bibig namin. Kase naman, sino ba naman gganahan kausap kung bigla ka tinatalikuran. LOL So humiwalay nalang kame nila O and M for lunch. Tas may dumating na isa pang shushi. Nung pabalik na kame BTA, ayaw na daw ni M bumalik kase shempre, sino nga naman ggustuhin bumalik dun? Parang hell dun. Hahaha! Kahit ako, sa totoo lang, ayaw ko na rin. I can only take too much. Ako na nga yun indi pinapansin sabay ako pa yung ssabihan na 'parang wala akong kilala'.
O de ayun, sinamahan nalang ako ni M magshopping hanggang mapagod sha. LOL Pero masaya sha kasama kahit nakakakurente sha. Hahaha! Tas nung kinagabihan, hiningi ni T yun mga gamit nia sa RO tas kung anu-anu pang sinabe sa public. Pareho ata kami nawalan ng respeto sa isa't isa by doing that. Pero di ba? Kalalake niang tao, dapat indi na nia yun ginawa. Tas feeling ko pa parang super pahiya ako kase akala ata ng mga tao dun, BF ko nga sha at sha ang nagbbigay sa akin ng mga gamit. Yun tipong nakaasa lang ako sa kanya. May nagtanong nga e, 'Tin pano ka na?'. Hahaha! Haiz. Di ako mamamatay dahil lang dun. Wala rin namang nawala sa akin. In the first place, nung lumipat akong URDR nun, dahil yun sa barkada ko e. Hindi naman dahil sa kanila. Di buzz? Nakakatawa nalang na nakakaiyak. Hahaha! Nakakatawa kase pagkatapos ng mga nangyare, sabay gusto pa rin normal ang lahat ek ek. Parang si B ah. LOL Tas nakakaiyak rin kase shempre anu-anu pinag-iiisip ng mga tao tungkol sa akin. Damay buong guild. Kahit yun mga di ko kaclose, nagsslash e5 pag nakikita ako. Nakakaiyak kase di ko man lang mapagtanggol sarili ko. Di ko man lang makorek kung anu man yung naikalat tungkol sa kin. Well, at least, alam ko naman kung anong totoo. Buti nga mabait GF ng GM ko dun. Sha lang ata yun naging totoo kong friend dun. LOL
Napahaba. Hahaha! Tapos na yun. Nakwento ko lang. Para may record. :P
Since nagstart ng Med school, kaliwa't kanan yung pagiinvite na sumali sa mga sororities at fraternities. Do Med students really need to be in those? Parang napakainappropriate for me. Kung ordinary org lang sha, 0kei sana. Kaso kung may hazing ek ek di ba? Di na talaga tama. Weird na. Oh well. Basta I'll stand firm with my decision. Di ako sasali dun. Well, besides the fact na ayaw ni mami (kahit na alam nio naman na pasaway ako basta gusto ko hahaha), ayaw rin ng dadee ko eh (that HAS to count, right?). :P Wala lang. Feeling ko tuloy, nalagas yun mga kaibigan ko. May mga bago na silang set of friends. :( Kailangan nang makagawa ng labas soon. Para naman magkasamasama naman kame. :(
Speaking of school. Kahapon, si J bigla akong hinalikan sa forehead amp. Rar. Sabe ko ssumbong ko sha sa GF nia eh. LOL Napakaewan ko ba? Sabe ni dadee dapat sinampal ko daw. Eh indi ko naman ata yun kaya gawin? :( Siguro kung hindi sa forehead yun kiss, baka nasampal ko. Baka lang ha. Indi ko pa rin sure kung kaya. Hahaha!
Ai, remember M from school?! Grabe naaasar na ako dun as in. Nun last week, he was tracing circles or whatever sa arm ko using his pen. Inaalis ko tas ibabalik lang rin nia. Tas in the middle of class, gusto nia ganun rin daw ang gawin ko sa kanya. Ano ba kala nia sa ken?! Uto-uto?! >:P Kakainis. Tas this morning, eh di next to the wall ako nakaupo eh nagpaphotocopy ako, pagbalik ko ba naman, may nakasiksik na na silya sa tabi ng chair ko!! And guess who?! Badtrip amp. Pinagssiksikan ang sarili. Grr. Tinalikuran ko nga tas dinikit ko chair ko sa chair nia. O de indi na sha kasha. :D Tas sabe pa nia yesterday, ppunta raw shang UERM today so sasabay daw sha sa akin. Nagimbento nalang ako eh. Hahaha! Sabe ko susunduin ako ng dadee ko. :D Haiz. Sana naman, makahalata sha. :( Yan talaga ang prob ko eh..di ako marunong magsabe ng 'Hoi!! Ayaw ko sa iyo!! Leave me alone!!' LOL How many times ko na ba yun gusto sabihin sa mga umaaligid jan jan lang?! :P
Aun. Tama na muna. LOL Indi na ako nakakapag-aral dahil kung anu-ano inaatupag ko. O sha, post na to.
Matutulog na ako eh. Hahaha! Pusa nap lang. Mag-aaral na pag-gising. Pwamiz. ^^
Tin loves you. mmmwahx! (Wag TH/Tamang Hinala. LOL)
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Ooh Can't Nobody Do It Like You
Currently listening to: Tamia - Officially Missing You (Dj Kimosave mix)
Haiz. This should have been updated yesterday but I was just too overwhelmed to blog. LOL
My freshman year in the College of Medicine officially began yesterday. It wasn't traumatic but it was super challenging for me. As in. My class starts at 8am so I left home at around 6:45. OMG lahat ng bus na dumaan puro puno hanggang pinto! Until it was already 7am and I thought I had to do something about it or I'd be super late for my first day high. LOL So I remembered when Troy used to pick me up so we could go to school together, we would take the Quiapo Echague jeep. But I was on the other side, meaning there aren't any Quiapo jeeps there - it's either Cubao or Divisoria. So I took a chance on Divisoria because it says Recto. LOL Jerry once told me, if you don't know where you are or where you're going, don't look too obvious that you don't. So ang yabang ko pa, nakiabot ng pamasahe tas sitting pretty kase maluwag ang jeep. Sabay tanong yun manong driver, "San 'tong sampu?" PATAY. LOL I wasn't able to answer in like 5 seconds and 8 pairs of eyes were on me waiting for me to say something. Hahaha! First thing that came to my mind was, "Legarda!". When I don't even know where exactly that is. Hahaha!
I got stuck in traffic pa and I got to Mendiola at around 7:45. I thought I'd wait for a bus there so I can go straight to Manila City Hall instead of taking the Echague jeep because if I do, I'd be walking sa underpass and I'm super scared to walk through there. Walang bus. Same buses na puno hanggang pinto. So I thought I super had no choice, I had to take the Echague jeep or I'd be super late. Sabi ko nalang sa sarili ko, hindi naman ako siguro hahayaang mamatay ni God kung gusto ko lang makarating ng school on time. Hehe! So I took the jeep and when I saw the entrance to the underpass, I went throught it, walking super briskly LOL and then I had to slow down. Which exit do I take?! LOL Luckily, I remembered that the Mabini jeeps pass in front of the Quiapo church so I took that exit. I arrived at PLM at 8:15. LOL Not bad for a first-timer. :P
When I emerged alive from the underpass, I couldn't help but smile to myself and thank God for such a super challenging morning and first day of class. I just had to thank Him that the buses were full for if they weren't, I wouldn't have tried this longer and more complicated route all by myself. Of course, I wouldn't have known about that route if it weren't for Troy. It sort of makes me feel that the rest of my days would be just as challenging but with people who are ready to guide me. And if I really want to learn, I would have to go through all the other challenges and in the end, it could be liberating and fulfilling.
So I went to class, right? When I opened the door I think I spoke too softly saying good morning and apologizing for being late. I thought the prof was mad at me because he asked me to stay in front of the class. When I was at the front, he told me to introduce myself. That was a relief LOL So I said, "Good morning, my name is Ma. Christina Pineda. And I'm late." Everyone in the room laughed. Definitely not bad for a first day. ^^
I wasn't late today. LOL I left at 6:30am. I just got lucky that I was able to get a seat next to this really fat guy who kept glancing at me. I hate it when people do that. Yun tipong, tinignan ka na once, titignan ka pa uli, tas ulit, tas ulit pa, etc. Parang anu ba?! May kulangot ba ko sa pisngi?! LOL Pasingawin ko sha jan eh para makaupo naman yun malaki kong puwet. Wahaha! Anyway, we had lecture lang in the morning, orientation sa lab in the afternoon. I had fallen asleep at 1:15 since there still wasn't a prof around. LOL And when they finally came in, I had hoped they'd send us home early because I'm SOOO sleepy.
I think I'm sacrificing too much but I like what I'm doing. But I like being sent to bed. :P And I know that I'm abusing my body. Hehe Will try not to anymore. ^^
My new friend, Michael, was going to UERM so he went home with me. We took the Cainta bus. Nahilo nga ako sa bus. Hindi ata ako sanay na may kausap habang nakasakay. LOL Kwento kasi sha ng kwento the whole time. So yun, bumaba sha sa SM City Sta. Mesa. When the bus was about to turn before sa Blumentritt st., grabe hindi na maipihit yung wheel. Nasiraan yun bus so we had to stop sa may bridge after SM going to Blumentritt. From there, I walked to Agora LOL Naisip ko parang super wasted na ata ako if I'd take the jeep pa na lalakad pa uli bago makasakay and pagbaba sa street ko lalakad uli. LOL Baka lumaki muscles ko sa legs hahaha ang arte. O basta yun. Nagtrike nalang ako. Pang tamad :D I thought okei lang naman since I was able to save on baon because I brought packed lunch. ^^ So now my money goes to the photocopies. LOL
My class tomorrow starts at 7. Goolak to me LOL!
PS. Wrinkled Indian Arabooo where are youuu LOL
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
Makes You Change Your Ways
Currently listening to: Usher - U Got It Bad
Last night was wild. LOL Some things got out of hand. Some people were hurt but forgave afterwards. I think 'fighting' is healthy if the people involved are willing to calm down and talk about it. That way, they'd know what hurts the other person and they won't do it again. That's if they've learned their lesson. :P And sometimes, when you find out about a person's secrets, it helps. Nakakagaan ng loob. You don't have to keep screaming inside just because you think you can't let things out because you're too afraid to be judged. Labo? LOL I'm not super myself today. Sowee.
In other news, M (my ex ex ex) called me from Hong Kong last night. LOL He was asking if I wanted anything from HK and if my mum wanted to buy med stuff. I told him that my mum and I didn't want anything. And then while we were having lunch today, he called again to say na ang dami raw inchek dun. Eh shempre mejo uminit ulo ko kase naistorbo pagkain ko tas akala ko naman kung gaano ka importante yun call na yun kase bat lunch time tumatawag so ayun. Bumingo na naman sha. Hahaha! Sabe ko, 'Alam mo para kang 6a6u sabe ka ng sabe ang dameng inchek. E asan ka ba?! Kung ayaw mo makakita ng incheck, wag ka jan pumunta! At isa pa, kumakain ako istorbo ka!' Ayun. Binaba na. Hahahah! Last night pala, he told me na he was almost over me na but then he went to HK and saw my race so naalala na naman daw nia ako. Grabe noh? How lang have we been over na baaa!! Years na OMG and he still can't get over me.
Sabe ko nga kay mama na bakit kase ayaw nia maniwala na maraming dedz na dedz sa akin. HAHAHA!! Dati naman pag sinasabe ko yun sa kanya, she'd only say 'utot mo' or '6a6u mo' but kanina, she said 'Marami nga, puro bulok naman'. Ouch. Duroggg. LOL Totoo ba yun? :( Haha! And then she said, 'Yun kalbo nga yun pinakabulok e'. T__T She was referring to MF (my ex ex). :( Yun kaya yung pinakalove ko sa lahat. The best I've ever had. Kaso lang now, we don't even talk anymore. Hehe! Sha lang ata ex ko na ganun, indi ako kinakausap after ng break-up. It's okei. I'm over that na tagal na yun eh. And about B (my ex), parang wala na lang rin sa akin. True may pinagsamahan ganun. Shempre I'd be sad that he's leaving the country for good but at the same time I'm still hurting because he's such an a55 for not telling me early on na he has plans of leaving. Basta. Sayang lang yun time and effort na nagugugol dun. Nuff na. :P
Anyway, I think I'd be able to get my books today. We're just waiting for my bro to come home and then we're heading to Gateway Mall. Haiz. I do hope I get my books today. I'm planning to read at least a chapter or 2 of each tomorrow. Holiday :P And then may class na ako the day after that. Should be prepared. ^^
Oh no..looks like it's going to rain. Literally and figuratively. :(
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Friday, June 09, 2006
On Taking Chances
Currently listening to: King for a Weekend - A Lack of Color (Deathcab for Cutie cover)
*FYI: King for a Weekend is my friend from school. He also keeps a blog where he shares lots of music by other artists and by him. You can visit him at
JID. He also has this other blog where he and a group of friends make videos for whoever needs it. It's at
Pink Penny's.
So. I think things are back to square one or worse. Last night, T and I had a really bad fight. I just got super fed up with all of it. Kung mainit ulo nia sa something else, bakit kailangan ako idamay? Anu ba nia ako para idamay nia ako sa kainitan ng ulo nia? Shuta?! Kainis eh. He really doesn't know what 'gusto' or 'love' means. Kung 'gusto' or 'love' mo ba ang isang tao, ganyan ba dapat? RO-wise, wala talaga ako masabe sa super helpful nia sa akin. Kaso lang nga ang dalas naman nia magjelly about other people. Lahat na nga lang ng tao dun, nageemo ako ng kiss e para wala nalang. Eh kaso wala. Nagpromise na ko na I won't emo kiss anyone na. May exception to the rule pero isa lang yun. If you want to know if you still have the chance to take a chance, don't ask now. I'm too pissed to be nice.
The Wilkins delivery boy came by early this afternoon. Flirt talaga non kahit kelan. LOL Tas nambobola sht pa. Miss Ganda daw! Hahaha! Eh kahit naman di nia sabihin yun, bibili naman talaga ako ng tubeeg nila kase no choice? Hahaha! Sabe nia I've been gone for a month daw or 2 weeks. And that ogre!! He said tumataba daw ako!! T___T Am I really getting fat?? :( Feeling ko nga I'm shrinking eh. LOL. Malabo lang mata nia siguro. Or he can't remember what I looked like the last time he saw me. Whatever.
I should super start writing my essay!! But what am I doing!! And God, time flies so darned fast! Hai. :( I'll try later.. when my brains aren't being fried in this heat. :P
Ugh.. 3 days to go.. :( I will be spending more time for school soon.
My Yahoo! Messenger with Voice keeps disconnecting me, right? I tried to find answers yesterday and some person said to clear the cache. It helped for a while but the cache keeps eating files so I get disconnected lang rin after a while. So now I uninstalled and reinstalled my YM.. I hope it finally works na.. T___T Kakainis kase yung padcdc.. :-<
I'm a foolish risk-taker who couldn't stop hoping for things to turn out good or at least right is fine. ^^
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Thursday, June 08, 2006
If I Gave it All Away for One Thing
Currently listening to: Mary J Blige - Be Without You
(and i'll be waiting up until you get home.. c0z i can't sleep without you baby..)When was the last time I changed the songs on my MP3 player?! LOL I can't remember. I'll be reinventing it just as soon as I finish the list of what I wanna hear for the next few months. Waha! That long?! LOL Goolak. Here's a part of that list:
Daniel Powter - Bad Day
Mary J Blige - Be Without You
Fort Minor - Where'd You Go
Frankie J - Obsession
Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten
Ray J - One Wish
Beyonce Knowles - Check On It
Rob Thomas - Lonely No More
Bo Bice - The Real Thing
3 Doors Down - Let Me Go
Howie Day - Collide
Mario - Let Me Love You
Papa Roach - Scars
Jason Mraz - The Remedy
Finger Eleven - One Thing
Akon - Lonely
Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu
The Killers - Mr. Brightside
Mariah Carey - We Belong Together
Ashlee Simpson - Pieces of Me
Frankie J - How to Deal
Rob Thomas - Ever the Same
Jill Sobule - Bitter
Join the Club - Nobela
Soapdish - Tensionado
Yea. Notice that these aren't new songs. Some are pero wala lang. Basta.
I overslept naman kanina. Or was that just right since I haven't been sleeping normally? Woke up at 9am. I cleaned up the house and stuff. And I had a visitor today. Yung mananahi. OMG She's fast! She delivered my uniform today. I think I gave her the material just last week and she's done 5 sets plus may lining pa yun sabe nia doble trabaho daw. Pero grabe bilis. To think na she works alone. I tried it on kanina. It felt sakto. I dunno. Haha! Haiz.. Med school, here I come..
Pinalabhan na sa akin ni mami agad. But I don't think I'd be wearing it on the first day or first week of school. LOL I'll wait until it's the last day for civilian. Hehe! Pasaway mode. :P
Besides that, I don't think I was productive today. As in. I had wanted to start reading the Anatomy book but it's so darn hot here in my room. It's not conducive to learning. LOL Gumaganun pa. Eh basta. I thought I'd start writing my essay for FCM but OMG something's wrong with me. LOL Harrr.
Indi na ata bagay sa akin mag bracelet :(
All I did today was support R and T sa pagPK nila, magvend, magmonster's game, magblog LOL, magpicture ng sarili (super LOOOL) at magesep kung ano pede gawin, ng mga song para sa player at kung asan ba yun. LOOOL Siege mamaya so I can't start reading todayyy. Perhaps tomorrow? Ai nako, Tin.. Rarrr.
Ito para hindi na ko magblush pag may nakakapansin sa kalandian ko sa hikaw. Hahahaha!!
Ang oily ng mukha ko kadiri. Tas may pimple pa hai. Sino may kasalanan?!
I think he could be at work. If he is, I must be really good. ;) If he's still in bed, I suck. :(
Makaligo na nga ulet. Hihihi mmmwahx!
PS. I'm selling my red Nike Air Presto. I bought it at 3,999 Yen when the exchange rate was still at 0.42 Yen = Php 1.00. So in Peso that would be 1,679.58. I've worn it once palang to Gateway Mall for like 5 hours lang and that's it. About the size, size 9 kase ako pero sobra sha sa akin ng half an inch. It doesn't say kase what size sha basta lang nakalagay S for small. LOL Anyway, I'm selling it at Php 1,000 lang. So if you know anyone who's interested (don't worry I don't have athlete's foot or anything like that hahahaha), you can reach me at 09225646714. Thanks! ^^
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
The Kind Your Friends Warn You About
Currently listening to: MYMP - Sway
(come sweeten every afternoon.. say you'll stay don't come and go like you do..)I feel sleepy. LOL Why wouldn't I? I've only had 3 hours of sleep before I had to go to my mum's office to burn the stinking DVD's. And I only had to burn 4!! Rarrr. So I thought I had to find something else to do while I'm there. I switched on my laptop, plugged in my flash drive and copied a few Ragnarok files. And then I was out of here.
My mum wanted to get coffee from McDo MCU but she was driving so I had to go down to get it. Shempre sabog ichura ko nun. Pag pasok ko the manager was looking at me and natural na conscious ako napaisip ako agad anu meron mali besides sabog nga ako. Naalala ko, I was wearing this pair of earrings my bro got for me - isang moon, isang star. Hahaha! Naisip ko baka yun. Eh napasmile pa yun manager so nagsmile back nalang ako. So you choose: a) he's inggit about my earrings b) he's wondering if I know I'm wearing a wrong pair of earrings c) he's just plain flirting. LOL
When I got in the office, I started burning the DVD's na so I finished really early with that. I thought I'd photocopy some chapters from Merrie's book so I can read and highlight. After like 6 pages, I asked my mum if I could just take it to Copytrade and have the entire book photocopied. Sabe ba naman, 'Nanghiram ka nga para makamenos ka sa gastos eh! Papaphotocopy mo pa! Basahin mo tas mag notes ka!' Uu naman. Ganun na nga lang eh. Wala na ko sinabe. Hahahaha! I set the book aside and then I tried to look for something else to occupy the little space in my head that doesn't have a name on it. Naoverlap lang ng name ng onti. :P
I remembered about this game, yun O2Jam. I thought I'd try it para lang may magawa ako. So I asked J where I could get the game and I asked if the file size is just small. He said yes and when I was about to download it, it was a friggin' 425MB installer! WTF! I was bummed out and my mum was asking me to shred some unwanted documents that were stacked a foot high! Sabe ko, matutulog nalang ako. Wahahaha! So ayun I fell asleep for like 2 hours and that entire time I felt I was having a bangungot because I couldn't wake up. Parang every time I try to wake up, I think I'm awake but there's always a different scene. Parang nagising na ko, gigising uli, tas gigising uli. Pero nananaginip lang ako. Until my mum called my name, I finally woke up to reality. LOL And tadah! 12pm na! Hahaha!
And then we had KFC delivered for lunch and while I was trying to get my Ragnarok to work, I received an IM. ^^ Nuff said. ^^
Anyway, I know I shouldn't be thinking about it. Parang come what may lang dapat. But, dear friends and family, thanks for giving me advice. Thanks for reminding me how much pain I've gone through because of my wrong decisions with regards to the matters of the heart. Thanks for being concerned about me. Really. And you should know na I don't want to go through the same things all over again. And I know that you guys know that not all males are the same and people can change, perhaps not overnight, but they do. And I sort of believe that he can, if he wants to. ^^
I should go to bed. So sleepy. :( Nyt nyt. Mmmwahx!
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006
And the Gloom Lingers On
Currently listening to: Nina - I Don't Want to be Your Friend
Okei. I had the freakiest dream last night. I was at some shopping place with Bert. My phone rang and he answered it. And he won't give me my phone back. And then later on, he has possession over my two phones and then he was threatening me that if I don't go with him, he'd kill me. I kept screaming for help because a lot of his friends were there to help him with the 'kidnapping'. I don't know. It was a crazy dream and when I woke up, I felt so tired. :(
Maybe I feel safe only when I feel I'm near you. Question is are you going to stop being near me? :(
On family and money matters, a LOT has been going on. Sa dad side ko, my tito B decided to resign from the job that my mum got him. Not that I don't respect him but he's just so dumb. I mean, why resign when he has nowhere else to earn money from? And he's expecting a huge sum of money as separation pay. Not possible. It's a small company for crying out loud. It's not like San Miguel. Speaking of San Miguel, his little sister, tita R, works for that company. This semester, tita R had paid for tito B's daughter's tuition fee. I'm guessing that maybe tito B thinks that if he needs money, he's got tita R to run to. Plus, I believe my dadi also contributed to the tuition fee and stuff. Haiz. So which is it? Is he using his head or not? LOL Talk about superproxy.
Who would save me from distress?
On my mum's side, my Aku R's family went to Singapore courtesy of my Ai Z, right? And my bro went along with them plus my Ai C. Anyway, they couldn't be here for my the UST enrollment. At first, Aku R's wife told my mum to give a blank check to her son's classmate who had agreed to enroll him. Shempre, nagalit si mami. I mean, what kind of sick person would give a blank check to someone s/he doesn't know personally? Or who would give a blank check to anybody at all?! So my mami talked to me and asked if I could do the enrollment thing, using my credit card that my dadi doesn't know about. LOL But my dadi decided sa last minute that he'll do it nalang. Ayan. Andame complications. My cousin was saying we got his PE wrong and stuff. LOL Ewan ko ba. And then tita M, Aku R's wife, was like giving away pasalubong as if there was no tomorrow. Ayan tuloy, nawalan si Aku R ng kakaining kasoy. :( Hai. My point is, hindi naman masamang isipin ang sarili paminsan-minsan. Kung alam mo na ngang wala ka nun and gusto ng mahal mo sa buhay yung bagay na yun, bakit mo pa ipapamigay? Para masabe lang ba na nagpasalubong ka? Hindi naman kailangan.. Anu bang utang na loob mo sa kanila para bilihan mo sila ng pasalubong kung inaapi-api ka na nga nila dito sa loob ng compound? Not thinking. Definitely not thinking. Haiz.
Maybe you'll never come near me again. :(
I would love to see 'Failure to Launch'. J said that the movie reminded him of me. Too much failure in a lot of relationships and yet I still stand strong. LOL Do I really? Stand strong? Or is that just what I want people to see? Or is that just what I want to believe?
Whatever happened to 'I get what I want'?
I got homework to do.. :( Wala pa ngang pasok, may homework na. Should be easy.. It's an essay on what and how to be a 5-star doctor. And if I can be a 5-star doctor. I hope Merrie doesn't forget to deliver. Hahaha! Ang spoiled ko grabe. Weee! I'm glad my friends love me. :X Hehe.. Will write more later if I have something else to write..
I'll see you around. I hope. ^^
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Perhaps Not Too Long
Currently listening to: Eheads - With a Smile
I feel that I am about to get burnt if I don't stop now. LOL In all aspects..not just about sleep. *Sings 'it's just emotions taking me over..'* LOL Okei fart that part. I'm just a wee bit sick in the head right now. What is wrong with me?? T__T Rar.. Some sense please.. Game.
I woke up suuuper late today. 12pm!! OMG. It get's later and later and my back has to suffer for it. :( I say I should stop. Put a borderline wherever one should be placed. T__T I don't think I would be able to wait up until the wee hours of the morning anymore. But it doesn't mean a thing.. I mean.. It doesn't mean anything. LOL Not making sense. I just can't sleep late anymore. It's not normal for me.. And I don't think my body is up for that. :( Sorry..
Hey, if it's God's will, then it is, right? No questions asked and no holding back.
About the 'get burnt' thing.. I'm starting to feel and think stupid. LOL Will try to explain.. I created this new account which houses T's and my Zenny and expensive, not-always-in-use quips. I'm the only person who knows the password. And then my fan was selling me load and I thought I'd buy one for my brother because my fan needs the Z. So when I was about to login to the 'bank' account, my mind goes blank. I cannot remember the password. LOL I had to check my email to retrieve the password. Patay na si Tin. As in patay. Not literally. T__T
Bastaaaaa. I am so screwed.. T__T
Time is almost up.. til 12am lang ako dapat. No matter what.. And I have to be firm about it.. I don't wanna get sick.. T__T
I'm so glad Merrie's lending me her books. I should be able to start reading tomorrow. At least I'd have something better to do than to sit around and wait.. LOL Who in hell told me to wait anyway?! LOL Ako nga. Hahaha! Pero inde ako taga hell. Hmp. Waaa! Ang gulo ng post na to. Sorry.. T__T
Calling out
In the gloom
In the light
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Sunday, June 04, 2006
I'll Leave the Light On a While
Currently listening to: Coheed and Cambria - The Light The Glass
We were driving home from Pampanga once when I heard this sad, sorry love song on the radio. It's called 'I Wish I Wasn't' by Heather Headley. It's not that I can relate to the song because I'm having regrets or anything like that. It's just so sad that every time I hear it, I find myself close to tears. LOL. Whattaloser ba?! Oh well.. ^^
I had prayed hard enough for school to start on the 13th instead of tomorrow. LOL I'm so glad that God loves me. And I'm sure he knows that I am SO not ready for school yet. I mean, I haven't read anything about my subjects in advance. It's the usual nerdy ritual I do before school starts. LOL That's the same reason why my cousins used to call me nerd. At least I'm not being 100% nerdy anymore. Or perhaps that's a bad thing. LOL I should go back to being a nerd, shouldn't I? I think I'll need it. For med school.
I am beginning to like somebody these past few days. Or whatever. He's really nice. I feel comfy talking to him about stuff. Plus, he's responsible, funny, sweet, etc. Too bad I'm still scared about trusting boys/men right now. LOL And besides, it's just 'like'. And I don't really like putting friendships in jeopardy just because of the L word.
I bet T will have something to say about this when he reads my blog. That's if he'll ever read it again. I think he misunderstands some of the things I say here. Oh okei, maybe he won't have anything to say because he won't speak to me at all? LOL But we talked already. About 'us'. I'm just really not into it. But I'm really glad to have him as a super close friend that I could trust with almost anything and everything. He's helping me now with disposing my old accounts or putting them into good use. And to thank him, I made him this Chef Hat that he really wants in-game. He likes it naman. But I dunno. Sometimes he's different. Makes you feel that he's mad at you for something. Eh alam mo naman ako. Si Miss Super-affected-ever. I don't like the feeling of having someone mad at me for reasons I cannot comprehend.
And since T has been helping me with Odin, he's been using my characters there and of course, the 'ever-loving ex-ex-an' was there to see it and he didn't like it. I say, who gives a fart if he doesn't?! And there. He kinda hates T for being 'epal' daw before when there was still an 'us' and until now daw. I dunno what he's thinking and I don't really care but if he doesn't like what I'm doing then he should just leave me alone. LOL
And for God's sake!! I am so not 'tag-lamig'. And even if I am or if that's what I'm supposed to feel for being single, it doesn't matter. Please stop hooking me up with people. T___T I am fine on my own. And right now, I just can't find the next person who is worth all the pain that will come afterwards. And I say next because it might not be the last. LOL I wouldn't know. Hai.
Peridot is somewhere trying to win some gurl's heart even though he doesn't like her. LOL Allan is..I don't think he's the guy for me because OMG he's in love with someone else and he's just trying to deviate from that because the gurl doesn't love him backkk!! I do NOT take left-overs. Unless otherwise noted. LOL If it's a good left-over, why not? But this one's..ugh. He reminds me of Roi - a dirty old man. LOL Nuff said.
And OMG I really don't have to be with a guy right now. I have a lot going on for me and yes it could be nice to have someone to share that with but if it doesn't come, then it doesn't. I don't have to rush things. In the words of Auntie Juanita, 'kung dumating na, eh di ayan na.' Yun yun eh. Wag na kayo magulo. LOL
My brother's home from his vacation in Singapore. He's super lucky there's this iPod promo where they release 7 iPod nano's a day to tourists. He got one. He didn't get me one. LOL It's okei. He got me other stuff naman. Such as a Winnie the Pooh mug that has this really sexy shape LOL, Swarovski earrings (and he kinda got spanking from my mum because she says they're so damn expensive and he got me 4 pairs LOL poor kid), an Imation USB flash drive 512mb, etc. And then my aunt got me this really cute bracelet. Honestly, I didn't know what it was at first because I forgot how bracelets looked like. LOL I'm used to the really long chains for ankles and I thought that it wouldn't go around my wrist. But it did and it's really cute. I like it ^^
I hope I get books for med school soon. I'm glad Merrie's got the Netter atlas so I can borrow that from her. And I think she has this other book that I need on NeuroAnatomy. If we meet up for Gateway one of these days, I should be able to get it from her na. The other books..I think I'll ask my dad to get them for me from Avenida or something. Or Goodwill, Gateway. Think, think! LOL Basta I need to get books. ASAP!!
Plus, I should start re-adjusting my body clock. 0_0 I've been sleeping really late these past few days. :D Hahaha! I know. I'll stop when school starts. I promise. And besides, nagaadjust rin naman ata para sa akin. Or so I think. LOL Basta un!! Hai. Hahaha!! Hai hai hai. See ya! Mwahx! ^^
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