Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Ngyahaha! Walang magawa!! Kinain ng pagiintay ang aking day kahapon. Ngyaha! Ok lang.. I still have 2 days, anyway! :P Did you know?? I wore PJ's the WHOLE day. As in. I didn't leave home to just even cross to my Amah's house. Ngyaha!! But at least, I'm a bit reproductive! I decorated our Christmas tree! ^-^ Lapit na.. ^-^ I took pictures today. Wala lang.. trip trip lang.. I'm thinking that if I had a digital camera, laging puno yun of nonsense pics. Haha! Hrm.. Yun nalang kaya bilhin ko instead of an mp3 player?? Check out my pics!! ^-^
Si Mami patawa.. -_-
O ha?! San ka pa?! Ganda nun tree noh?? Ngyahaha! Wafu naman yun sa tabi eh.. hihihi!
My Dadi's shorts-eating bum. NGYAHAHAHA!! My mum loves this pic. ^-^
KILIG!! NGYAHAHA!! Si ano kasi.. NGYAHAHA!!
Ayan! Dito ko nagmana ng pagpapacute! Ngyahaha!
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Monday, November 29, 2004
Food Fest. Tiramisu - love it. Gawd. I had it for breakfast. Sarap sobra.. It's not too sweet and not too sour.. Basta.. Tamang tama lang. Saya! ^-^ We're having shabu-shabu for lunch! YUM! For those who think that we're taking drugs, LOLx: shabu-shabu is where you have this pot in the middle of the table and you put whatever you want to eat inside. Basta. Ganun na yun. Hm.. I wonder.. Kelan ko kaya gagawin yung silvanas? Maybe this afternoon na lang. It's going to be my first time to do it. GGness. Sana masarap sha pagkagawa. GGness ulit. ^_~
Itinerary for the day. It's cold but I'm not thinking about sleeping. These are the things I MIGHT do today:
//read for school in advance.
//make silvanas
//play Theme Hospital or Twisted Metal on PS1
//go OL again later to wait.. (this is the ONLY sure thing I'm going to do)
Waiting. Did you know that this is the thing I HATE doing most?? 10 minutes lang pikon na pikon na ako non. Pero buti nalang, I was brought up in a civilized manner kaya di ako nagbubunganga kapag pinagiintay ako. Pero bakit ngayon.. Kagabi.. Nung isang gabi.. Nung isa pang gabi.. I waited for hours and hours and I didn't even complain? Pagpapakatanga na naman ba ito? Ehwan. All I know is..I'm still willing to wait - kahit gaano pa katagal.. kahit kailangan makapaglevel 99 muna ang isang novice.. Teka.. Ragnarok yun ehhhhh! Nu buzz. Pero seryoso. I'll wait THAT long if that's what it takes.
Tests. Since I've been waiting for hours with nothing to do, I decided to take quizzes. Try them, too! ^-^
Tin Highway | Hobotown | 7 | | Confusion Lane | 22 | | Study Hall | 42 | | Contentment Meadows | 162 | | Lake Love | 430 | | Please Drive Carefully |
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Fairy tales, your love will be like an imaginary story, you love to love, you believe you have
only one soul mate waiting for you some where in this world and you are sure you will
find them one day, and when you do you will make them the happiest in the whole world.
Where will you find love?
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B:
Your Beauty lies in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to set you apart, but more that lets you blend. People love the stability you have because as others may come and go, you will always be there and you may always be the same. You like simple things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and kind and that shows on you, but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a rather well-rounded individual. Even though some people pass you off as just another girl, shrug it off because they don't know what they're missing.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element: Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color: Pinks, Blues, Browns Song: Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple Smile
Gemstone: Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair Color: Light Brown Eye Color: Brown
Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."
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Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli' sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.
What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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A:
You take the Beaten Path. After all, that's what it's there for right? You are content with the options already laid out for you definitely of the "If it ain't broke, don't fix it." frame of mind. You tend to be a follower rather than a leader, but that's fine because all good leaders must first be good followers. You
tend to follow the crowds living life the tried and true way, often letting others make the decisions.
Just don't forget you have a mind too. Never be afraid to voice your ideas or opinions, no matter how ridiculous others may think they are. This beaten path is your comfort zone, you want and deserve company
on your travels trough life as you are probably a very friendly and kind individual, always putting the
needs of others before your own. That's an excellent and all too rare quality. Never lose it. But being surrounded isn't always the best. People tend to try and take charge and advantage of the fact and if
you aren't careful, it'll be your life that's been taken over. Venture away from your well-traveled road
and find your own away. Head down that road less-traveled and see what's there because though the path you're on may have been done before, that doesn't necessarily make it the right one for you. Step out
of your comfort zone and take some risks you wouldn't normally take, make mistakes, and make some time
for just you. Indulge and be a little selfish. You'll come out all the better for it.
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
Blogger Error. If I don't get to post this today, Nov. 28, 2004, it means that Blogger is still down. HUHUHU!! I hate it when sh*t like this happen. Server maintenance is perfectly fine. But errors?? Dude. Please. T_T
Dadeh. I woke up rather early today (I slept at half past 2am and woke up past 8am. LOLx! I was talking to Mot, Anne ni Mot, Manok and Les.) My dad came down to eat some cookies and milk at that time that's why I was sent to bed. Hwaha! Yeah. Bad shot na naman ako! Pero pag si dadi lang..I don't take it that seriously. Haha! Not that I don't respect him or wala akong paki sa kanya or di ako takot..I dunno. He's just SO silly here at home that my bro doesn't take him seriously either. Basta. He was actually telling my bro (at ang bro ko naman ay nagsusumbong sa akin) that I was chatting with people I don't know. Huy. Haller?! Look who's talking. Sino kaya jan yun naguubos pa ng load para lang makipagchat sa mga hindi niya kakilala? Oh well. Matagal na naman niyang ugali yon.. na ipasa sa akin yung mga ginagawa niya. What's the sense in that? I dunno. LOLx! Anyway, I pity my bro kasi sha yun napagsasabihan at hindi ako. Bakit? Hrm..let's just say hindi kami close ng dad ko and we always end up arguing pag pinagsasabihan niya ako. Hahaha!! Ganon yata talaga pag parehong malabo ang naguusap! :P
Grocery. My mum and bro had planned to go to Greenhills for: 1 - to get my cousin's PS1 fixed and 2 - to buy grocery. I asked my mum if we could drop by at another mall as well..but when she heard why I wanted to go there, she thought I was silly and then completely ignored my plea. T_T Anyway, the PS1 repairman said he could finish it in 30 mins so my mum suggested we go around and look. Afterwards, we went to Unimart and GAWD we went through the whole store!! As in LAHAT NG ISLE dinaanan namin!! Lesson learned: DO NOT wear 3-inch-high-heeled shoes when shopping. Leave it for dinners or at other occasions held at places where you get to sit. -_-
Ooh!! I got new PS1 cd's! LOLx! It may be SO out for some people but for me, it's still in. I love our PS1 dude. I make sure it's kept in its box when not in use. ^-^ Anyway, I got Theme Hospital (I used to have this game on our PC. It's fun! You get to build your own hospital, choose your staff, upgrade machines and stuff..) and Twisted Metal Party (It's called "Party" because it's got Twisted Metal 1-4. I haven't tried this game ever. I don't really know how to play it. LOLx! I just wanna try and see if I like it. ^-^).
Tired. My bro requested that I make Tiramisu. I complied. Kung bitter Tin yung in-ask niya, malamang natarayan lang sha. HAHAHA!! Anyway, right after we got home, I started making it and I ended up with a 6x12 3-layer Tiramisu. Can't wait to have a bite!! ^-^ I hope all the trouble's worth it. ^-^ I missed baking all of a sudden. Kung di lang nakakatakot gamitin yung oven.. Pumuputok-putok kasi yun parang power eklat niya.. Disgrasya lang yun. We also bought this Oreo Cream Cheese batter. I'm going to make that after I make silvanas. Haha! Parang wala akong ginagawa eh noh?? Hrm.. wala lang. I'll have time for everything. I've scheduled almost everything. Even waiting... ^-^
EYEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! I have a REALLY long weekend!! No school until Wednesday! ^-^ Monday's a holiday. On Tuesday, our stupid school president wants us to go to Liwasang Bonifacio (wherever that is) but, of course, I'm not going! I never go to those things. My parents say it's a waste of time, money and effort. I say I'd rather sleep! Hihihi! And on Wednesdays? It's my fave day! Besides its being the middle of the week, I don't have classes scheduled on this day. It's rest day! ^-^
Grabe.. 11pm na.. Asan na kaya sha? Sana ok lang sha.. Kumain na siguro sha.. Miss ko na sha.. pero baka di ko na sha maintay.. Pagod lang talaga ako ngayon.. Di bale.. May bukas naman.. Sana.. Wag sha umalis..
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Saturday, November 27, 2004
Snippets of Sugarfree. Just as I promised. ^-^ These are just some of the songs I REALLY liked. If you want full lyrics to a certain Sugarfree song,
email me. I'll be more than happy to be of service to you. ^-^ I think I'm getting addicted to these guys. Haha! Kapatid ko galit na galit na sa kin. Ayaw daw niya tugtog ko. Palibhasa wangsta at maka-rnb. -_-
Di mo lang alam,
Inaasam,
Ang panahong makapiling ka,
Sa una't huling pagkakataon...
Ayoko nang mag-isa
- Mariposa
Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita,
Di mo man marinig, di mo man madama
O kay tagal din kitang mamahalin...
- Burnout
Isang tama sampung mali
Ganyan ako pumili
Di na mababawi ng puso kong sawi
Daig pa ang telenovela
Kung ako ay magdrama
Ganyan ba talaga, guhit ng aking tadhana?
- Hari ng Sablay
Sorry di kita hinabol
Sorry tayo'y Malabo
Maya maya lang ay may ilaw na
Pero sana malaman mo
Magkailaw man madilim pa rin
Kung wala ka
- Kandila
Alaala ng lumuluhang kahapon
Dahan dahan ko na ring kinakahon
Natagpuan ko na ang tunay na ligaya
Lumabas ako ng kwarto't naron sya
Magpapaalam na sa yo ang aking kwarto
- Kwarto
Kailan ka ba
Muling darating
Marami na akong tinagong lihim
At kahit na ilang ulit mo pa akong sinaktan
Basta't sa susunod di mo na ako iiwan
- Martir
Tatawa tayo, sabay seryoso
Untiunti kang nakikilala
Kay sarapsarap mo palang kasama
Dati kasi, tahimik ka lang palagi
Pero ngayong gabi
Parang kay ramirami mo nang sinabi..
Kuwentuhan lang, wala namang masama
O usap lang, dahil gusto kitang makilala't makasama
- Kwentuhan
Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
Mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
Kung matulog, matulog ka na…
Tulog na mahal ko
Nandito lang Akong Bahala sa iyo
Sige na, tulog na muna
Tulog na, mahal ko
At baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas
At sabay nating harapin ang mundo
- Tulog Na
Ako'y isang malungkot na bata
Palakad-lakad lang
Wala rin namang mapupuntahan
At madalas, madulas, at nung parang ayoko na
Buti na lang nandyan ka, buti na lang nandyan
ka
- Sinta
Just to clear things up. Marami palang hindi nakakaintindi nung nangyari kay D. And I'm thinking na baka pati sha, hindi niya naintindihan. O kaya ako. Baka di ko rin naintindihan. It's not that I just want to come out clean.. like I want to wash my hands about the whole thing. Ok lang na ako yun lumalabas na masama or paasa or whatever. Gusto ko lang linawin. Kung malinaw ko nga. LOLx Wag na nga. Di ko rin naman alam kung saan magsisimula. Kayo na bahala. Kahit anong gusto niyo isipin at kung saan kayo masaya, suportahan taka! LOLx Ayako na ipagtanggol sarili ko. Basta alam ko kung anong totoo, bahala na si batman sa inyo! ^-^
Pagpapakaplayer. Hindi totoo. There was a time na all I talked about were boys pero DUH wala akong pinaglaruan sa mga yon. Wala akong pinaasa. Wala akong ginawang sugar dadeeh sa kanila. Kung di ko trip, I told them right after. Er.. basta nasabe ko na ayako. Kung tumagal man sila, ibig sabihin may chance at kung hindi naging kami, hindi sila nakapaghintay. So please. Tamaan na yung dapat tamaan. Ayako na maging player at hindi na ako player so stop saying na I am. Kung may minahal man ako sa kanila, it was not THAT deep or THAT strong kaya madali lang nawala.
Blame it on my pheromones. I doubt if anybody can control theirs.
Conversation with my closest girl-friend. I shocked myself. I've never opened up to any girl about my feelings for anyone. But beware. Same wavelength kami nito..parehong may pagkabastush. Hwaha! Wala lang. Just wanted to share na masaya ako. ^-^ Hay. Grabe. I've never been SO clumsy in my whole life. Takot na nga ako humawak ng kutchilyo. This morning, I almost broke my mum's claypot, yung mangkok, yung plato, yung pitcher ng juice muntik matapon, and the list goes on. What's up with that? Baka nga natabunan na ni Ano ang brain ko.. Bad ba yun?
j_flick (2:46:52 PM): san ba kau ppunta?
laine (2:46:59 PM): eastwood daw.
j_flick (2:47:03 PM): ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ayako don
laine (2:47:19 PM): bket?
j_flick (2:47:33 PM): wala dun si Ano
laine (2:47:46 PM): c *****?!
j_flick (2:48:06 PM): oo na wag mo na sabihin un name amf
laine (2:48:24 PM): kaw taLga..challenge ba at deyn mo makuha?!
j_flick (2:48:59 PM): challenge?
j_flick (2:49:00 PM): hahahaha
j_flick (2:49:03 PM): anu ka buzz
j_flick (2:49:10 PM): ganun tlga ako
j_flick (2:49:15 PM): gusto ko un mga d ko makuha
laine (2:49:39 PM): para kang c jo tapos kapag nakuha na iiwan na lang bigla sa ere.
j_flick (2:49:51 PM): hindi ako ganun noh
j_flick (2:49:54 PM): pag nakuha ko to pramis..
laine (2:49:59 PM): kaLa ko ganon ka.
j_flick (2:50:00 PM): i'll cherish him
laine (2:50:06 PM): pag nakuha mo?!
laine (2:50:10 PM): orgy agad?!
j_flick (2:50:16 PM): orgy mo muka mo
j_flick (2:50:19 PM): i respect this person
j_flick (2:50:20 PM): iba..
j_flick (2:50:21 PM): pramis
j_flick (2:50:22 PM): iba to
laine (2:50:30 PM): putcha kaw pa rumespeto?
laine (2:50:37 PM): hehe...mamanyakin mo Lang naman yan eh.
j_flick (2:52:24 PM): gegow
j_flick (2:52:27 PM): iba nga tooooooooooooooooooo as in
laine (2:55:45 PM): panong iba?!
laine (2:55:52 PM): tipong ibabahay mo na?!
j_flick (2:56:06 PM): anu ka buzz..
j_flick (2:56:22 PM): kng binahay ko un e d indi respect un noh.
j_flick (2:56:27 PM): mamamanyak ko lang sha lalo
laine (2:56:38 PM): ehehehe..cooL.
laine (2:56:48 PM): putcha pavirgin ang ***** ah.
laine (2:58:42 PM): o ikaw?!
laine (2:58:50 PM): ai deyn sabe nga paLa ni bobet kweba ka na..
j_flick (2:58:55 PM): ayako lang sha manyakin.. ok..
laine (2:59:04 PM): bket?!
laine (2:59:08 PM): virgin?!
j_flick (2:59:10 PM): kya lang naman nya sabe kweba kasi tutpik lng sha
j_flick (2:59:22 PM): hahaha for sure indi.. er.. yata?
laine (2:59:29 PM): hehehehe...
j_flick (2:59:32 PM): 2* na un noh..
j_flick (2:59:49 PM): 17 nga lang na batang lalake andami ng alam.. un pa kaya
laine (3:00:10 PM): malamang...gago papaikutin ka nya.
j_flick (3:00:20 PM): ha? papaikutin?
laine (3:00:30 PM): helicopter baby...yeah boy.
laine (3:00:32 PM): haaha.
j_flick (3:00:41 PM): d ko gets..?
laine (3:01:09 PM): helicopter duh?! para naman deyn ka tropa nila joven at deyn mo lam yan.
laine (3:01:16 PM): fhm o kaya kama sutra kaya
j_flick (3:02:36 PM): ahhhh.. erm.. bastus pala un LOL ewan
laine (3:02:47 PM): ewan..pavirgin ka kze.
j_flick (3:03:13 PM): hindi! disabled lang cguro un nilulumot na side ng brain ko
laine (3:03:33 PM): natabunan na kze ni *****...bwahahaha/
j_flick (3:04:58 PM): gegow indeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. mejo lang.. LOL
Ganon naman talaga ang buhay. Pinagkakait sa iyo ang gusto mo. AHAHAHA! Ang drama amf.
Tsinelas. I already posted this on Friendster's bulletin board. But bulletin boards there don't get archived. So I'm reposting it here. Enjoy! ^-^ Balang araw, makikita rin natin yung tsinelas natin. ^-^
> Maraming uri ng sapatos ang nagkalat sa
> paligid - may school shoes,
> rubber shoes, boots, stilettos, sandals at kung
> anu-ano pa. Iba't ibang
> style, iba-ibang dekorasyon. At syempre, iba-iba
> din ang presyo. May
> mura, may mahal. Ikaw, pag pumasok ka sa
> opisina, di ba isinusuot mo ang
> mamahalin mong black leather shoes (kung lalaki
> ka) o yung high-heeled
> sandals mo (kung babae ka)? Yun ang isinusuot
> mo dahil yun ang gusto mong
> ipambalandra at ipakita sa iba buong araw.
>
> Pero at the end of the day, kapag pagod ka na sa
> maghapong trabaho.habang nasa biyahe ka na
> pauwi ng
> bahay.ano ba'ng tatlong bagay ang
> ini-imagine mo'ng gawin? 1.) Magpahinga 2.)
> Kumain ng hapunan at 3.) Magbihis
> ng damit-pambahay at magsuot ng tsinelas.
> Tama, tsinelas!
>
> Naisuot at naipagyabang mo na ang lahat ng
> magaganda at mamahalin mong
> sapatos. At maaaring marami ka na ring
> napahanga dahil dito. Pero sa
> bandang huli, kapag hindi mo na kailangang
> magbihis ng maganda,
> mag-pretend ng kahit na ano, nasa bahay na lang,
> walang make-up at ikaw ay ikaw
> na lang talaga, di ba't ang simpleng tsinelas pa
> rin ang
> hahanap-hanapin mo? At wala ka nang pakialam
> kung may tatak man ito, mamahalin o may
> kung anu-anong burloloy.basta ang alam mo,
> tsinelas ang gusto mo.
>
> Sa buhay mo, marami kang makikilalang babae
> at lalake. Maganda, Gwapo,
> Sexy (pang-FHM), Mayaman, Malakas ang dating,
> Hanep ang porma, lahat
> na. Pero sa bandang huli, pareho nating alam na
> hindi yun ang
> pinakamahalagang ingredient ng tunay na
> pagmamahal. Kumportable ka ba sa taong
> 'to? Does he/she make you feel good about
> yourself? May kakaiba bang
> 'warmth' na ibinibigay ang taong 'to, na parang
> nagsasabi sa'yong 'you're
> home and safe at last'? Does this person make
> you happy? Tinatanggap ka
> ba niya kahit 'pambahay' na lang ang hitsura mo?
> Siya ba ang tipo ng
> taong alam mong makikinig kapag nire-report at
> ikinukwento mo na ang mga
> nangyari sa'yo buong araw? Think about it.
>
> I'd be a lying asshole kapag sinabi kong
> aesthetics do not count. Pero
> ang puso, tumitibok yan sa mga di inaasahang
> pagkakataon. And sometimes
> you wonder about it, and most of the time, you
> even deny it. But deep
> down, you just know, and feel, that it's right.
>
> Ito ay para sa mga taong nakahanap na, at
> naghahanap pa rin ng tsinelas
> nila.
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Friday, November 26, 2004
I just LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURVE Personality Tests!
| How to make a maria christina cheng pineda |
Ingredients:
1 part friendliness
3 parts silliness
5 parts beauty |
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
Spark. He came to pick me up from school today. Ang weird. Nahihiya ako. He wasn't supposed to pick me up. I just informed him about this Christmas bazaar over at World Trade Center because earlier this week, he had told me about his problems with his Christmas shopping. And then he said he'd drop by and he wanted me to come with him. Luckily or unluckily, our sub-prof gave us some stuff to do so we had to stay at the lab until 3pm. We weren't able to go. I told him I needed something from McDo because I was feeling..awkward..nababalisawsaw na nauuhaw na ewan. He was scary because when I was starting to pull out some bills, he said "Ako na." in his commanding voice. So anyway, he paid for my float and twister fries. (Thanks again, dude.) We walked past Doon and he said he wanted to play at Doon. Hahamunin daw niya ng Counter-Strike ang mga tao doon. I told him na wag na because those guys used to join tourneys and stuff. You know what he said?? "Until now, you still don't believe in me?" Wow. I just shut my pie hole and I walked on and got on the trike. Shitness. I was NOT going to have THAT argument.
Ano. Na naman! Hahaha! Hay.. The bus went pass Lawton where this thing was being setup. I remembered Ano. So I blurted this out to Spark: "Ay! Alam mo ba, nag-gaganyan si Ano!!" He looked like he wanted to strangle me to death! HWAHAHA!! I know that was mean..to express feelings about someone to your oh-so-recent ex.. But I wasn't able to contain it. It just went out. Hay.. Plus.. I really can't help it. I seem to be thinking about Ano wherever I am. Gosh! Kahit sa CR!!! He's the first thing that comes to my mind the moment I open my eyes. And the last thing that stays on my mind before it flies to never-never land. I think of him before I eat, kung kumain na ba sha. I think of him pag nasa bilyaran, sana andun sha. I think of him whenever I go OL, sana OL din sha. May golay. Love? Ewan ko.. Too early.. Too early to tell.. Too early to BE in love.. Yata? Haha! I don't know. I seem to be growing more confused everyday..
Utolski. May gas. He's back from his retreat. Niloloko ko nga eh. In my worst Dee Dee (of Dexter's Laboratory) impression: "Oh brother!! Did you miss me??" Ahihihi! Na miss ko sha pramis. Just like when he went for vacation in Singapore. I thought I'd be seeing a lot of changes. Like..he'd be a little bit more nice..or..er..I dunno. Basta kahit anong GOOD change. But then..MY GOD. He's as KULET as ever!! "Tol, patingin ng bot ko." "Tol." "Tol, sandali lang." "Tol, pwede ako muna?" "Tol, sandali lang ako pramis." -_- But for now, since matagal-tagal shang nawala, I'm letting him have his way. Love ko yon. Doon, sure ako! ^-^
Sugarfree. Wow. My friend, Arn Arn gave me a Sugarfree cd. Wow. At isa pang wow. The songs rock. I especially liked Martir, Tulog Na, Hari ng Sablay (of course), Kandila and blaaaaaaaaahhh. You should get their album or something. LOLx Do whatever you do when you support musicians. Hwaha! I hope I get lyrics for these songs.. And when I do, I'll be sure to post them here :) The JUICY parts lang. LOL!
Nyahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! Masaya talaga. Pag anjan ka. ^-^
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Reformat. I don't think I'm ready to do this just yet. I have lots of important files in my C drive that I cannot move to my D drive manually. Er..not because of the technical stuff..but because I'm too lazy to move the files one by one. LOLx And I'm afraid that I might not have the installers to the programs I usually use. Excuses, excuses. Hahaha! Oo na. I'll reformat.. er.. maybe later. After I blog.. Bahala na si batman.
Kurikung. He visited me today. Nangamusta lang sha. It was a very casual meeting as usual. Nothing new. Nothing fancy. He told me "ang dugyot" ko. LOLx Nakapambahay lang kasi ako. Pati butas ng shirt ko napansin pa nga eh. He also told me that I didn't have boobs. Sows. Almost everybody tells me that. Even my mum tells me that - eh genes naman niya ang may cause non. Tell me something I dunno naman. Hwaha! He even noticed my pimples and recommended that I use Likas Papaya. He was even fixing my hair because I wasn't able to comb it before seeing him.
Hindi kaya..bakla yon? Hwahaha!! Jowk lang!! ;))
Friendster. I didn't give a damn about this thing until this week. Wala lang. It's like all of a sudden the craze is back and people are writing me testimonials and I get to write one for them in return. Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining. Logging on to friendster puts a smile to my face. And I'm glad. And I appreciate Friendster now more than before - when Merrie just pushed me into joining. LOLx It's just nice to know how your friends feel about you. How they see you and stuff. Wala lang. Nakakatuwa lang. Makes you feel loved. ^-^
Drama. Soulfly said my previous entry was "madrama". LOLx Sowee. I couldn't help it. I was feeling awfully confused yesterday. I didn't know what I was feeling exactly. I actually thought I was PMS-ing or just plain moody. Whattamoodswing. Happy!! Sad.. Happy!! Sad.. Happy!! LOLx Rollercoaster ride, baby. But, at least, there was a positive feeling. And the positive feeling lasts more than the negative..thanks to Ano. But then. Hrm.. si Ano rin naman ang cause nung sadness. Ahahaha!! Ambot.
Ano. Ahiya's pushing me to my limits. He was at Doon and he was chatting with me, telling me that Ano was this and that. May golay. Tama yon. I had told him to shut his pie hole yesterday. But he said he was "kilig" about the whole Ano thing and that he wanted me and Ano to end up together. It seemed as if he was suggesting that I "court" Ano or "baka maunahan" pa ako. -_- First off, I am not and will never be the type who "courts" men or even tell them that I like them directly. (I say "directly" because when you feel something for somebody, it'll show now matter how you hide it. ie. through your words and actions.) Secondly, if he likes someone else, then by all means, let him have her. I will never interfere with them. Happiness nya yun. I'll be happy if he's happy. (November 25, 2004 - Today we commemorate Tin's Martyrdom. -_-) And yeah.. I shouldn't go SO out of my way if I want to talk to Ano. I'm not regretting those times when I barely slept just so I'd see him OL. I just thought na dapat ilagay ko naman sa lugar. That I shouldn't sacrifice my health for him. Kung patay na ko, pano na?? E di hihintayin ko na lang sha sa langit. Oi.. Baka dun may pag-asa ako. /gg
Bits of Eternal Bliss.
//no school today! awoohooooooooooooo!!
//Ano went OL today.. *blush* and may golay.. is he flirting?? *reddens even more*
//I talked to Ano..
//Ano referred to me with a patweetum name.. *BLUSH*
//Ano..
//Ano..
//did I mention Ano? ;))
Morsels of Regret and Great Lessons that Went with It.
//I shouldn't have wanted to try the new Pringles' Salt and Vinegar flavor. I cannot stand eating the thing. It's WAY too salty. I now know that not all things that come in baby blue are good for me.
//I shouldn't have told anybody about Ano's identity. The first person that will give out my secret is no other than MYSELF. So I should shut my own pie hole so that I will not be afraid if others open theirs.
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Martyrs Always Die Painful Deaths
I was SUPER happy when I woke up at 11:30am today. My crush.. It was because of my crush. LOLx Hay.. *blush* I thought nothing could ruin my disposition until this afternoon. Somebody confirmed that he actually likes someone..else. Pifness. Sobness. Ang babaw ko. Ehwan.
Just a crush. I will have to keep reminding myself that. Eh bat ganito??? T_T
My bro's not around. He's gone for his retreat at Batangas. Saya! Inggit ako. I hope he has fun and I REALLY hope that he learns something from it para naman bumait bait sha ng konti. Ahihihi! Anyway, he's coming back on Friday. I'll miss him. Wala ako kasama sa room. Walang makulet. Walang kaagaw sa comp. :s I'm actually thinking about reformatting the comp while he's away. He gave me a go signal last week to do that during this week. But I dunno.. I don't wanna miss a thing with Ano.. kahit sandali lang yon.. That "sandali" could mean a lifetime for me.. But I dunno.. If there will be no classes tomorrow, I'll reformat early in the morning.. He doesn't go OL that early.. Ahihihi!
I've never felt so weird in my life. Or.."crazy" might be a better term. One moment I'm sad..and I'm happy in the next..and the same person causes both reactions. I never thought it was possible. It makes me sad that he likes someone else but when I get to talk to him it's like everything goes away.. Like there is only him and me.. Like I forget all my worries, my doubts, my fears.. What is this?
55 days have elapsed. 45 days to go. Will I learn my lesson? Will I be ready to get burnt? Will I be ready to give love? Sana masaya pasko ko. Hahaha! Sabay ganun. -_-
My Wishlist:
//walang pasok bukas... please po God please? mabait naman ako e.. *BIG GRIN*
//that my mum's RBC count will go above 69 - FAST
//that I get to talk to Ano now na!!! NOW!! T_T
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Whattab*atch!
ModCore PM-ed me on YM just now. He was asking kung maganda ba raw yun Tantra. I said it was very much like Diablo - the gameplay, graphics, equip windows and stuff. Whatev. Here's how the conversation went.
ModCore (10:24:07 PM): gameplay maganda?
j_flick (10:24:12 PM): parang diablo ngaaaaaaaaaaaaa
ModCore (10:24:37 PM): tinatnong ko kung magnda gameplay hindi kung ano kaparehas na gameplay
j_flick (10:25:20 PM): eh d if u liked diablo u'd like tantra..
j_flick (10:25:40 PM): un naman meaning ko e..
ModCore (10:26:26 PM): lahat ng games magkaiba, edi kung pareho yan edi diablo rin yan hindi tantra
Sabay logout. Letse. What's up your a55 dude?? Kasira ka ng araw.
The Stages of Happiness
1. Crush - The stage where you only see the surface, the facade. You adore the way he/she looks like, the way he wears his/her clothes, the way he/she walks, his/her voice. In short, physical attraction. You use only your eyes to achieve shallow happiness but happiness nonetheless.
2. Like - The stage where you see beyond the surface, the dermis, in terms of the skin. You admire his/her intelligence, maturity, sweetness, kindness and actions. In short, mental attraction. You use your eyes and your mind and you suppose that he/she is the perfect mate. Happiness that keeps you away from hurt.
3. Love - The stage where you no longer want to see. You want to accept him/her fully - no pretensions and regardless of his/her negative traits. In short, emotional attraction. You neither use your eyes nor your mind. You use your heart and start believing that there is such a thing as "forever". Real happiness that is accompanied, of course, by hurt. But most people choose this regardless of the pending pain. Ain't love grand?
Suckedy Suckedy Sapopo
Tuesdays
07:00 - 08:30 Asian Civilization
08:30 - 10:00 Cellular and Molecular Biology
01:00 - 03:00 Microbiology Lecture
I got to school at 7am. Di pa ko nakakapasok ng classroom, sinasalubong na agad ako ng balita na walang Cell Bio because were supposed to attend mass. So I go, "Happy! Shalalala! It's so nice to be happy!" I entered the room and the next news I got was that my 7am prof texted that she's not going to class. Shouldn't she have done that earlier?! Duhness. We ended up hanging out at the shed talking about nonsense stuff. I learned a lot of new terms from Joven, as usual. Ewan ko ba kung san nya nakukuha mga words nya. Anyway, we didn't go to mass. Salbahe.. -_- We went to play billiards, as always.
I was so sleepy and I really didn't want to go home because I might not come back for my 1pm class. LOLx. Plus, Abs reminded me of my promise that I will not miss any class starting this week. My stupid mouth. -_- Well..maybe I have to be glad that I kept that promise because we had a quiz during Microbio. A quiz which I'd probably fail. It's like I didn't learn anything from the previous lesson when I read my notes beforehand. Sh*tness. At least I learned something new..like Pseudomonas and all that other bacteria and virus.. Right.. Whatev..
I went home by myself again. It's not like I'm not used to it. It's like you had something, you lost it.. and you want it replaced.. Anyway, I thought I took the wrong bus home because the friggin sign behind the sign upfront says "ALABANG". But then, I look around the bus and the driver and the conductor and I saw familiar stuff. It was the same bus I took to school earlier this morning. -_-
My Wishlist:
//that my mum's RBC count will go above 69 - FAST
//that I won't be too LAZY tomorrow so I can READ in advance
//that I can have a complete sleep.. starting now..
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Monday, November 22, 2004
And as the Hours Drag..I Slowly Die
Mondays
07:00 - 10:00 Analytical Chemistry Laboratory
10:00 - 11:30 Analytical Chemistry Lecture
12:00 - 02:00 Biological Research and Methods
02:30 - 04:00 Technical Writing
Sana may meme time in between classes. I miss those days. I miss my Mrs. Canta (daycare) days. You get to learn, you get to play and you get to take naps!
I was awfully hungry during my laboratory class. Grabeh. I had my breakfast naman..at 5:30am nga lang. LOLx Badtrip pa yun prof. Kasi, she's the same prof for the lab and for the lec so tuloy-tuloy dapat from 7am to 11:30. Ok lang sha?? We're humans, dude! She didn't really want us to get a break. Sabe pa niya, "If you want to have a break, bilisan niyo kumilos para di ma-consume yun buong time." Wow ha. Pano bibilisan ang kilos? Ang layo ng hugasan. Buti sana kung may tubig sa loob ng laboratory!! At kung may lab manual na kami!! Rar.
I've learned my lesson. I will never sign in to my mobile phone again. -_- Mga flooder!! Buti hindi naghhang phone ko. *Ahihihi!* Ang kukulit nyo nga lang. -_-
All in all, my day was not THAT bad. It was just a bit boring. And a bit asaness on my part. Boring because the hours seemed to drag. It felt like the prof was talking too slow or discussing the same thing too long. It was interesting naman. I even asked a question during Bioresearch. I was even called for recitation during Tech Write. I even took note of her grammatical errors and pronunciation bloopers. So I WAS listening. Asaness because Kurikung had said he'd pick me up but then yadda yadda..blek. I went home by myself. I got home in 45 mins. so that's good enough for me. ^-^
Ahiya says I should say this. Ayako na sana. Pero unfair daw ako kung di ko sasabihin. Mahal ko si D kahit papano. Kasi kung hindi, bakit pa ako pupunta doon? Kung ayako talaga, pwede naman kami magsapakan ng kapatid ko para lang di ako makapunta doon. Kung hindi, bakit ko pa sha pilit kinausap kahit tablado na ako pag pasok pa lang Doon? Kung hindi, bakit ko iririsk na mapahiya, magmukhang tanga, gago, engot, blah? Yun lang po. Bow.
I won't be waiting for anybody tonight. Not even Ano. (Even if I'm dying to talk to him.) I'll be studying. I want to go to school prepared. Or maybe I'll concentrate on school na lang. Bahala na tayo sa mga buhay natin.
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
God Loves Me So
WAHEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! I got the books that I need. Er.. at least alternatives to the ones I really need. It's difficult to get Bio books that aren't being reprinted anymore.
Doh. Anyway, I checked out Book Sale first before going to Natio.
Pwede ka naman pala matuto sa mistakes mo e. Noon ka pa sanang ganyan!! I got a hardbound book of The Cell by Cooper for Php670. O ha o ha? But Tech Wrtng books are not available there so I still had to go to Natio for that. Na "last pair na eh" nga ako dun. -_- Pangit na yun book. Mas pangit pa dun sa secondhand na Cell book na galing sa Book Sale.
Bat ba napakapintasera mo?? Tampalin kita jan eh makita mo.
Anxious na naman ako pumasok sa school bukas. I hate that feeling. It's the worst feeling in the world - anything related to fear. I freakin crumpled my excuse letter for not coming to class last November 8 and Laine tells me that my prof needs it again for our lab class. Shitness. I already tried ironing the paper to remove the creases but they just won't go away.
Bakit mo pa kasi nilukot!!! Stupeed. I had to print a new copy of the letter, had my mum sign it this time *Ahihihi!*, and she agreed to give me her driver's license for authentication. So high school! My gosh. I feel so young. *Ahihihi!* Still anxious. -_-
I was taking an IQ test while blogging. Check out my results! ^-^
Congratulations, Tin!
Your IQ score is 129
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace.
We dropped by Kamiseta at Greenhills, as usual. Bagets si mami eh. Kamiseta gurl. Hwahaha! At as usual, may bitbit na naman shang bagong top pag labas. Hwahaha! I actually liked a couple of tops. My mum wanted me to try it on at kung ok, she'd buy it for me.. Pero nahihiya ako eh.. My books are awfully expensive. All in all, abot Php3000. Nakakahiya kung papabili pa ko ng top..dagdag gastos lang yun. Eh may damit pa naman ako. Hindi pa naman ako lumalabas ng bahay ng naka-underwear lang. *Ahihihi!* Plus, she's buying herself a treadmill na may iba-iba pang function. Parang 3in1 ganun. Eh she really needs that because she's getting older and she's overweight. Ang liit na tao, ang laki ng timbang. -_- Pinagmalaki pa nya na 125 lbs. lang sha, eh 5'1 lang yata sha. Tama ba un. Hwahaha!
Salbahe mo. Nanay mo kinukwento mo hoy! *Ahihihi!* Sinabi ko rin naman yun sa kanya kanina. Natawa lang naman sha. Yun pah? Magagalit? Magagalit lang yun pag guys lagi tawag ng tawag sa kin. Hwahaha!
Hay. Miss ko na si Ano. I haven't been able to "talk" to him lately because he seems kind of busy with something.
Saksakin mo nalang ako kung busy with someone.. T_T Ang babaw ko ba?? *Ahihihi!* Wala lang. Crush lang yon. Pero matindi. Ahaha!! At least hindi ko pa sha nisstalk noh!!
At parang may balak ka pah?! Wala. Ahahaha!! Kausapin ba raw ang sarili?? My golay. But I have to fix my stuff for my laboratory class tomorrow. I still have to osterize my amah's food. And I think I might browse my books in preparation for my classes tomorrow. Para naman hindi ako airhead na nakaupo lang dun.
I hope I have a good day at school tomorrow. Pangit lang talaga bakit Monday pa ang pinakahectic day ng week namin. Sana Friday nalang or Tuesday para the next day, rest day ok lang kahit gumapang ka na pauwi. *Ahihihi!* Para namang lasing yun.. Gapang. *Ahihihi!* Hay. Baka di ko na makausap si Ano tonight. Sana sa Tuesday gabi makausap ko sha. *Ahihihi!*
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Saturday, November 20, 2004
Nyahahayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
I can't believe I wrote that last night. I wanted to delete it this morning. But I thought..wag na.. I'd like to browse my archive in the future and read about my silliness and just laugh at myself.
Totoo lang. Nadudurog ang puso ko ngayon. I knew it was bound to happen. I didn't want it to happen but my bro just HAD to push me into it. I had sworn I won't go there because I know mapapahiya lang ako. Baket ba kasi ako naging ate?? Kamote. My bro wanted to play RO there. I TRIED to talk him out of it but he won't listen. As usual, he wanted to have his way. Pag pasok ko palang dun, tablado na ko eh. Hahaha. Sabi nga ni SuitePee abnormal daw ako kasi tawa ako ng tawa. Alanganamang umiyak ako don?? Ok lang yun na nagmuka akong gago. Minsan lang naman yun. Di na rin mauulit. SuitePee..salamat tol..da best ka talaga.
We went to shop for my books afterwards. Super malas. As in. I should have gone to check at Book Sale first before Natio. I got my Microorg book for Php900+ when Book Sale sells the same book, HARDBOUND, pero gamit na for Php450. Nice. Oh well. Basta may libro. Books are the only things that excite me to study. Lalo na yun mga type na masarap basahin. I still don't have a couple of books yet though.. Cell Bio and Technical Writing. PUTEK. I'm going to Greenhills tomorrow and I better get them because if not, baka tamarin na naman ako at di na naman magpapapasok.
Letse yang Tech Wrt na yan. Ok nga yun aura ng prof mo wadapak naman yun mga inaassign na homework. GREAT. I've been surfing the net since yesterday but I still couldn't find what she wanted us to find:
give examples of the following characteristics and know its approach: accuracy,brevity,coherence,dignity,emphasis,confidence,facility,grammatical correctness,honesty,illustration,judgment,knowledge,logic,mechanical neatness,normal procedure,qualification,thoroughness,staright sentences,unity,veracity,view point, word choice, "YOU" point, zest and objectivity
Ang konti noh? If I only I had a friggin book..di ako maghihirap. Which reminds me, galing ni Soulfly. He helped me find the locations of the river systems I needed for my Asian Civ class. Wala lang. Just giving credit where credit is due.
I want to write about a lot of things but my eyes hurt already. I'll try tomorrow. But I might start reading my books tomorrow. So I dunno. Whatever. I'm glad I saw Ano today. At least that's something I can be happy about. Kahit konti lang.
Wish ko..makabili ako ng kulang kong books bukas. Please po God please?
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Friday, November 19, 2004
Isang malaking HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY...
I feel sad.. because Ano likes somebody else.. YATA. Haha. I'm not even sure. LOL..
Kala ko ba crush lang naman sha?? CRUSH. Yuhoo.. Earth to Tin..
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
Tama Yan. Confuse Yourself Even More.
My 10am class SUCKED BIG TIME. The freakin teacher asked us to submit our homework that was supposedly due next Monday because she had said that it was for our laboratory class. Gago ba sha?! Eh di malamang mga bibo lang makakapag-submit non ngayon!! Shitness. Iniisip ko pa naman kahapon kung ipprint ko na ba tapos di ko niprint tapos hihingin niya!! Kupalupize. Natatawa nga ako kanina kasi I was erasing some stuff on my notebook. Eh di todo yuko pa ko tapos pag angat ko ng ulo, parang nakatingin sha sa direction ko and she was mad about something. She was telling us na if we're not interested, we can step out. Hmm.. Hindi naman siguro ako yun. Pero weird lang kasi parang sa akin sha nakatingin. So kung ako nga yon.. Hoy! Doblehin mo yun lens ng salamin mo. Teka doble na pala. TRIPLEHIN MO NA!! Dahil wala akong ginawang masama.
I helped my mum with her problem with the BIR people. I had to leave school after my 10am class to go see Spark - he's my mum's supposed "savior". We talked to Connection and then we had it settled - for now, at least. Anyway, he's gained a LOT of pounds compared to the last time I saw him..which was a couple of months ago. Grabeh. Ang bilis. Ganon kasi yun talaga. When he's feeling depressed or whatever.. he eats a lot. He noticed almost everything about me - my scent, my bracelet, my wallet, my ponytail, my anklet.. Bad thing was, I wasn't wearing his anklet, I was wearing another anklet I bought for myself years ago. -_- When he asked me where his was, I told him. Patay. Na kay VJ. Pag warfreak mode sha, nakakatakot talaga eyes niya.. Kailangan ko makuha yung anklet na yun.. Ayako magkagulo dahil lang sa anklet.. T_T
I don't know why I lied to Kurikung. Or why I didn't tell him that I didn't attend my 2:30 class. I'm sorry. It's probably because I went to see Spark. Which is probably a bad thing to do.. But the meeting was for business. Just business.. I hope Kurikung won't take this against me.. T_T I'm sorry..
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Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Vitamins A D E K
My uncle woke me up at 8:30am because he needed his money. I couldn't go back to sleep after so I thought I'd fix the stuff I had to burn for Joven. Secret na yun. GGness. Anyway, I was too lazy to do anything so I ended up just copying my bro's cd. GGness again.
I really don't have a to-do list for today since I finished my homework yesterday. Oh wait. I HAD a to-do list. It included only one thing: SLEEP ALL YOU CAN - which I wasn't able to do anyway. I thought I'd run Tantra. I reinstalled the game for the nth time. It is just SO FULL of bugs. I was able to connect to the server and I kept on playing until I forgot about the time. Hwahaha! I had lunch at 1:30pm. Shitness. Tapos patay na naman ako pag nanakit na naman ang tiyan ko. Kakatapos ko nga lang ng meds e.. -_- Oh hey!! Check out my screenshots..
Attack Power!! and
Stats, Equips and Skills
I played and played and played until 5:30pm. Walang liguan yon. HWAHAHA!! I took a bath at 6:30pm because I had to call Spark for my MUM. Malinaw ba yon enough? GGness. Apparently, my mum needs his help - his tita's help to be exact. Nagulo na naman nga utak ko dahil don. Bakit ganon? Ano bang plan ni God? Kung kailan nag give up na ako kay Spark, chaka naman ako tinutulak ng situation palapit ulit sa kanya. Ewan ko na.
My mum's actually thinking about "arranging" my marriage to some Chinese guy. She told me about it last week yata. She wants to introduce me to the guy some time soon. Gusto talaga nung guy, mag-marry na agad. May gas. I told my mum na I'll accept if he'll allow me to study pa rin, finish med, work for a couple of years and then I can help him create his family. Anyway, hindi ko naman yun tinetake GANON ka-seriously like something urgent. But if ever she decides that I marry that guy, ok lang..I guess..since I don't love anybody right now anyway. I mean.. I don't love anybody ngayon THAT strong to the point na magtatanan ako or something. But now, I think she's considering Spark. THINK lang. She was asking what Spark looks like..san sha nag-school..san nagwwork..bla bla.. Oh well.. Welcome to my life?
Hm.. eh paano na si Kurikung? Loves pa naman ako nun.. Si D? Iniisip pa kaya ako nun? Si Ano? Kala ko ba hihintayin ko sha maging ready? AHAHAHA!! Hay.. Me and my puny brain and HUMUNGOUS heart.
Hay.. Panibagong araw na naman bukas.. Sa bilyaran lang din ang bagsak.
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Saan ka na naman ba pumasok?!
It's a rather tiring day today. Er.. boring is a better word.. My classes started at 7am - Asian Civilization. Wow. Boring. As in. I've never felt so sleepy in my entire life. Up next was Cellular Biology. Kamoteness. The prof was like talking to herself or to her book on the desk or something. I could barely hear her. I should sit in front during her classes. She's also my prof for Microbiology which is at 1pm. Ang gulo talaga magturo non. Patalon-talon. I better rewrite my notes. Ayako magsisi.
In short, our break is from 10am to 1pm. Wawawi. We spent the whole 3 hours at the Bilyaran. Mas natutuwa na akong magwaste ng time doon kesa sa Kompyuteran. I discovered that if I'm playing, and I'm moving around, the flies won't bite me. AND there's this guy there that I really dig. Hahaha!! Halande amfota. Hindi naman REALLY. Mejo lang. Crush lang naman eh. No biggie. Defensive. Tama na.
I actually like somebody right now. As usual, mukhang bad boy pero malinis at disente tignan at mabait. SOBRA. Hay.. Pifness. But, of course, I don't want to ruin his pleasant life. I've come to the conclusion that I am a really bad person because I keep hurting people when I really don't want to hurt them or anybody for that matter. Feeling ko nga, pareho kami ng ugali nun ni Ano. Don't put malice to our sweetness or kindness or being nice to you. Ganon lang talaga mga katulad naming bad on the facade. Wag ka mag-alala Ano, I won't do anything stupid to you. Basta. Yun na yon. Ahihihi!
I still haven't tried the Tantra game. Login palang PUNO na ng bugs. Juskupu. Parang nakakatamad na tuloy laruin.
Grabeh. Last night, I thought we lost our Internet connection again because my cousin is apparently "overloading" the cable modem. They didn't explain it to me. But they said it has something to do with the stuff he's downloading. Ewan ko ba dun kung anong dinadownload nya. Kung porn lang yun, tol!! Hinay-hinay lang!! Maawa ka sa mga nangangailangan.. T_T I actually couldn't concentrate during my Micro class because I was thinking about how I was going to accomplish my Technical Writing homework without my Internet. Gulay ka. RAR.
I'm not feeling really well pero eto pa rin ako. Nagsusulat ng gibberish. Giniginaw na nga ako e.. T_T I gotta go now.. Babay..
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Monday, November 15, 2004
"Pa-resu po pls 1k"
Goshness. I'm sooooooooooooooooooo damn glad that Destiny finally sent people to replace our freakin modem. You deprived me of the Internet for a week!!! You should all burn in hell for that!! You .......!!! Hay. Well at least may Internet na ako ulet. EYEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
I've finally gone for my ultrasound. For gall stones po hindi kung preggy! -_- Mahihilig talaga kayo mang-asar ehhh. Kamote. Anyway, the lady says my bladder's clean. So..the tummy pains must be caused by heartburn. Ok lang yon. May gamot naman. :P~
I finally got the Tantra installer from National Bookstore. I was going to try it earlier today but then the friggin patch won't patch. Err. Whatever. I'm downloading the patches manually so I'm guessing I might be able to play the game later on. Kahit ano. No rush naman. I just wanna see how it works and stuff. Curiosity.
I've been thinking about what to write for my thesis. As in WOW. I never thought I'd take it this seriously. I space out just thinking of what to study about. Haha. But then, it IS important right?? I mean.. Thesis yon, pare. Goshness.
Anyway.. Dami nangyari sa akin nitong nakaraang linggo. May nasira na naman akong pagkakaibigan dahil sa pag-ibig. HUWAW. Lalim. Heaviness. Ganon lang naman yata talaga. How can you last with someone so selfish? He calls you in the middle of the night to tell you that he misses you. Sweet ba yon?? Nambulabog ka. Nangistorbo ka. Tama ba yon? Tama lang na basted ka. Hwahahaha. Oo na Baku. Brutal na kung brutal. Pero tama yon.
Last Friday, we were excused from classes because we had to go to Philtrade and check out the science exhibit there. There were a lot of good theses and inventions. There's this device that allows blind people to read text messages. O du buzz?? San ka pa? There were also marble-like products made from melted styro. Kaka-elib talaga Pinoy. And I can't help but wonder.. Ang tatalino natin pero bakit hindi tayo umasenso?? Kamot ulo na lang.
I had my hair trimmed last Saturday. Nagpa-hot oil pati. Hahahaha!! Eto pa pala. The gay guy even shaped my eyebrows. Halande!! Hwahaha!! Amfness. Hm.. Baka nagiging gurl na talaga ako. Ahahaha. Ewan. Tama lang naman yon. I AM a gurl. I should be proud. Kahit kulang ako sa size... HWAHAHAHA!!
Naiinis na ako kay Kurikung. I think hindi ko kakayanin if ever we end up being together. Sometimes he's just SO tactless. As in. Napaka-insensitive. Hay nako. Bahala sha sa buhay niya.
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
My Supposedly First Day of School
I arrived at City Hall awfully early today. Around 6:30am, I think. *shrugs* Better early than late. I just didn't think I'd get there THAT early when I left home 10 minutes after 6. And I was expecting HEAVY traffic at the Bustillos area. It was HELLA awkward to see just a few cars lined up heading for Mendiola.
Reklamo ka pa ehhh!! 'Pag traffic, reklamo ka rin!! Nu buzz.. Matuwa ka na na walang traffic..at mangarap na sana laging ganun. Anyways, I met my prof's. I've been under them before so I've got no problems regarding their style or whatever. I just think I'm going to have a stressful semester. These 2 prof's are moody. They give unannounced quizzes (that usually seem like long tests). Good luck to me. And I found out that I missed a lot yesterday. Oh well. That's life for me. At least I'm not the only person who was absent during that day. Basta may kasama, ok ako. Sana.. Mwaha. ^-^
It's the first day I saw the PUBES again after the sem break. Did all of them change their hairstyle or what?? Pacute na ba PUBES ngayon?? Or are they just livin up to the name?? Hm.. PUBES will be PUBES. (Note: PUBES - Pederasyon ng Ubod ng Bibibong Estudyanteng Super-Kikay) Ako nga lang yata hindi nagchange ng hairstyle. Actually, its been I-dunno-how-many months now since I cut my hair. -_- Di ko pa trip. At trip kong magpahaba ng hair. Naks. Sabi ni BananaMan, seductive daw ako pag mahaba hair ko. Hmm.. Siguro pag basa pa yung hair at derecho pa sha. When my hair dries up, it makes big curls and it's really thick. I find it neither sexy nor seductive. I find it messy. Period. Pero gusto kong i-try. Baka sakaling maayos naman pala sha kung humaba pa sha lalo. Changing topic. The rest of the PUBES were teasing me about being "torn between two lovers". Only my closest friends know about D. Or New Guy. (Err..I doubt if anyone knows about this one.) So they were talking about Spark and Kurikung. They were actually comparing them. Dun daw ba ako sa naka-Altis or dun sa naka-***** (I'm keeping the ***** because I don't want you guys guessing who the guy is.)? Dun na lang daw ako sa "fatherly figure" (that's what they call Spark) kasi bagay daw kami, matanda na rin daw kasi ako. (Feeling lang nila na matanda na ako dahil puro sila 17 or 18 at ako lang ang 20 sa PUBES.) Eh bat ba. I don't want to rush into anything. Maybe I already have. But I'd like to correct that. Kung may pagkakataon pa. Ewan ko. Lately, I'm just SO confused about everything. Eh bat nga baaa. I DON'T HAVE TO RUSH. Bahala kayo if you want to wait or not or whatever. Do what you wanna do. Hell. You can even do as D did and I won't take it against you. Although..I still think that what he did was wrong. You can ask a gurl about your "status" (ie. MU, kayo, wala na, etc.) but never ask if she still wants you to court her. It's very wrong. Malamang ang makukuha mong sagot ay NO dahil lalabas, ang kapal ng mukha niya kung sasabihin pa niyang gusto niya pang ligawan mo sha. Nuff said.
I was walking home today, and as usual, nadaanan ko ang 7-11 at ang street papuntang Doon. I couldn't help but think about D. Siguro, kung hindi sha UBOD NG SELOSO, ok na eh. Siguro, kung hindi niya ko laging NILALAYASAN PAG MAY PROBLEMA, ok na eh. Siguro, kung NAGKAINTINDIHAN kami, ok na eh. And it just hit me. He is SO like Spark. And SO like Baku. Tsk tsk.. Sayang. BakuSpark Jr. Hay. Ito na naman po ako. Can someone hit me in the head please? Anyway, I also didn't like the fact that he borrowed my Bio book and asked SuitePee to return it for him. Tsk tsk.. Very bad, very bad, seventy-five. At mag-aasal *** ng kalabaw na naman ako. Lulubog ulit. At hindi (muna (siguro)) magpapakita sa Doon. Mapapahiya lang ako Doon. Lalo na pag andun si D.
It's the second day of my period and gawd I friggin forgot to bring extra napkin. I'm so glad and thankful that God loves me so. He sent us home early - at 1:30 to be exact. Our prof had to go somewhere or do something. I'm not sure because I wasn't able to meet her, I was in the restroom checking my "gauge" if it's full already. Am I freaking you out now?? Mwehe. I just HAD to say that.
On my way home, Spark was calling me on my handphone. He was telling me that he got this new Monopoly boardgame and he was inviting me over to play. (He's the devil tempting me.) Was he even serious?? What makes him think that I would actually go see him?? Mwehe. I honestly thought about it. *GGness* But no. I didn't want to do something that I would regret later on. Well..at least..not anymore. I better start thinking straight. Anyway, I said no. He "asked" me to call him when I get home. I said yes. But I didn't. *GGness* He called me anyway. And he was actually asking (and he sounded a bit irritated) why I didn't call him. Hwaha. Eh baket baaaaa. Ayako eh. Nushnaninah. What I do is none of your business. Who I talk to or date with is none of your business. Where I go is none of your business. You no longer have control over me. I am none of your business.
At naisip ko.. napaka-moody ko talagang tao. Lalo na pag meron ako. Pero at least, kasama sa mga mood na yun ang pagiging MASAYA.
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Monday, November 08, 2004
Warat ang Araw
Last night, I was supposed to talk to D and "finalize" whatever was between us. Actually, he was asking if he should continue courting me or not. (Which I still don't think I, or any gurl for that mattter, should answer. Men should be brave enough to take risks and accept the truth. Men should never stop courting somebody he really wants or loves because it ain't over until the gurl says it's over.) I wasn't able to talk to him that night because everything here at home was a HUGE mess. So early this morning, I asked him to call me up, we talked. I learnt that he was having problems of his own, which I understand and I've forgiven everything he's done to me. (He was actually asking why I keep on forgiving him when he keeps on hurting me. I've got an Immune Muffler. You get it from getting hurt again and again and again and again and over and over and over. Clear enough?) Earlier, even before he started courting me, I had told him that I wanted to take a break from being in a relationship. So today, I told him that maybe he should stop courting me
MUNA. We, as usual, didn't end the serious talk nicely..maturely..if there's such a term. He had told me not to talk to him after that.
Minasama niya yata yun pagkakasabi ko. Maybe sometimes I just can't find the right words to say what I mean. I blame it on me. GREAT. Pifness.
Does Karma Work THAT Fast??
I wasn't able to go to school just because of that incident. Stupid
na..sige na. I just don't like shit happening to me so early in the morning, ruining my mood, my day..my happy disposition. My 7am prof showed up according to my sources. And we (I and everyone else who thought that nobody shows up for laboratory classes on first days) are not excused for being absent. We need an excuse letter from our parents and we need their
ID. Yeah. You read it right.
ID. And I THOUGHT I WAS IN COLLEGE. Sh*tness. Anyway, I've made my excuse letter. All I need is an ID. I think this is my karma for not being nice. Or whatever. I'd like to think of it as karma rather than bad luck.
I didn't attend any of my classes today because of that prof. HWAHAHA! So chain reactions DO exist. Instead, I went out with Kurikung - the only person who understands me REAL F*CKIN WELL. He invited me when he heard what happened to my morning.
At ako naman ay nagpa-BI (Bad Influence)
na minsan minsan ay kailangan natin sa ating buhay. As if I'm not bad enough. GGness. Thanks, man. You rock. \m/
Sucks to be Me
Anyway, my life has been really sucky and I've made a HELL LOT of mistakes in the past that I don't want to commit again. I don't want to hurt anybody. So STOP getting too close to me.
My parents are banning me from this computer. LOLz. No more late nights for me. Actually, last night was my last, that's what I said to myself..since school has started and I'm gonna be busy. But I'd still be blogging every now and then. When they're not around.. Like.. now.. Ahihihi!!
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Saturday, November 06, 2004
I'm single. And lovin' it. ;)
I finally let out everything on Spark. Haha! As in I lashed out on him. And I feel sooooooooooooooooooo d*mn better now. Hell. I FEEL GREAT! ^-^ I think I'll just be going with the flow, wherever it takes me. But for now, I'll be happy. Because I AM happy! ^-^
Now I'm ranting about school. -_- I can't believe that sem break's over.. T_T I feel like I haven't got enough of RagnaroK.. I need it.. It's like my drug now.. But I better flush it out of my system, if I still want to get that 1.5 GWA. And I think I still want it. ^-^
Hmm.. I think that's about it for now. Nothing new to tell. Or.. I want to but they have to be kept secret. Hwahaha.
Chiklet. Ala clue.
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Thursday, November 04, 2004
"Do not seek to be understood, seek to understand."
Sa umpisa, akala mo ok ok ka lang. Kasi akala mo free ka na. Akala mo wala ka nang aalalahin. Wala ka nang iisipin. Wala kang proproblemahin. Tuwang tuwa ka pa makasama mga dati mong mga kaibigan. Lumalabas labas ka. Nag-eenjoy. Nakikipagkulitan. Masayang-masaya. Kung sino ka, ganun ka pa din. Pero pag dating ng gabi at nag-iisa ka na lang na gising, napapa-isip ka. Mamaya-maya pa, wala ka nang makita o mabasa. At pagkagising mo kinabukasan, namumugtong ang mga mata.
Akala ko nung una galit ako kay Spark. Dahil g*go sha. Sukli lang binalik niya sa akin. Hindi buo. Pero alam ko binigay ko lahat. Nakalimutan ko magtira para sa sarili ko. Tanga ako. Alam ko. Sa sarili ko pala ako galit. Dahil hinayaan kong ganon ang gawin niya sa akin. Ayaw ko na magexplain. Nasabi ko na to sa mga post ko nitong mga huling araw. Ayaw ko na magpaintindi. Pagod na ako. Ayaw ko na rin maghabol sa mga taong gusto kong maintindihan ako. Hindi na kailangan. Hindi niyo ako kailangan intindihin. Dahil kung naranasan niyo na kung paano magmahal nang higit pa sa sarili niyo, alam niyo na kung anong nararamdaman ko.
Hindi pala talaga lahat ng bagay kaya mo gawin mag-isa. It takes several hearts and minds to determine exactly what you're feeling. Salamat kay Teacher Teacher, lalong lalo na kay SoulFly at kay Kurikung. Kung wala kayo, hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupulutin ngayon. Salamat talaga. Ang kulang nalang ngayon, tulungan ko sarili ko.
PS. Alam mo kung sino ka. Hirap na talaga ako sa iyo. Dati kinakaya-kaya ko lang. Ngayon, hindi na talaga kaya. Gusto kita maintindihan. Sabi mo, gusto mo rin ako maintindihan. Pero paano yun? Kung lagi mo akong lalayasan? Ayaw kong maniwala na bata ka pa, tulad ng sabi nila. Pero ngayon..yun yung nakikita ko. Kung ang goal mo sa pagalis-alis mo ng biglaan ay itulak ako palayo, gusto ko lang malaman mo - effective ito.
PPS. Darating rin ang araw na hindi na ako kasingdrama ng post na ito. Sana buhay pa tayong lahat pag dating ng araw na iyon. /gg
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Wednesday, November 03, 2004
/pif's
Before sembreak started, I had goals I wished to accomplish.
1. Get my Non-Pro Driver's License.
2. Encode my mum's payroll thingy.
3. Finish my bro's homeworks....
4. Play RagnaroK until I've had enough of it.
5. Create web templates for profit.
6. Enjoy. /pif
This break's about to end and I still haven't lifted a finger to accomplish my first goal. Great. Honestly, I'm scared to go to LTO. I'm afraid of the fixers and those other people who would take advantage on anything moving - with large puffy eyes indicating innocence and being gullible. I actually envy Dems because he was able to get a new passport all by himself. And to think, he's younger than me!! -_- I'm such a sissy. /pif
Well..at least I'm done with my mum's thing..and my bro's homeworks..and I'm STILL playing RagnaroK, even as I type this. Hehe.. Adek.. But I haven't done or even started working on a template.. /pif
Hm.. I feel so weird lately.. Matamlay.. That's the best word to describe it.. Ewan ko ba.. Parang nasisira na yata ulo ko.. Umiiyak ako nang hindi ko alam kung bakit.. Nalulungkot ako tungkol sa mga walang kakwentakwentang mabababaw na bagay.. Buti di pa ko natatawa mag-isa? /pif
After you, I wonder, will I be able to give my entire being to the next person who's willing to love me more than you did? /pif
33 days and counting. 67 days left before the 100th day.
N days of tears.
N days of joy. /pif
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Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Is Everything Just a State of Mind?
I was feeling depressed a while ago. I don't know. It seems like I'm so agitated lately. Little things tick me off so damn easily. WTF is wrong with me?? Maybe that time of the month's coming again.. Or maybe I lack sleep.. I need sleep.. T_T
This leads me to listing down the sh*t I don't like. The sh*t that piss me off.
//mga panget na biro..hindi nakakatuwa..nakakaoffend..
//kapag kinakampihan pa yung kaaway ko..hindi mo rin ako kailangan kampihan..
//kulitan na walang saysay..na indi naman nakakatuwa..
//madami pa.. di ko lang maalala ngayon..
I was browsing my friendster account. I don't know what came into me but I found myself looking at Spark's profile. Then I was reading the testimonials I wrote for him. And I felt sick.. of myself.. Napaisip rin ako.. Nagkulang ba ko? Gusto kong ipasa sa kanya lahat ng pagkakamali kung bakit hindi nagwork yung relationship namin. May part sa kin na gustong magsisi. Gustong magalit dahil pakiramdam ko ang daya. Pakiramdam ko sobra sobra yun binigay ko, tapos wala pang kalahati yung naibalik. Isipin mo nang selfish ako. Pero sinong tao ba ang kayang magmahal ng walang hinihinging kapalit? Diyos lang may kaya non. Hindi ako diyos. Hindi ko kaya yon. Pero bilang tao kaya ko magpatawad. Maramiraming beses rin naman. Pero may hangganan. Sumobra ka pa nga eh. Ang dami kong rule na nibreak para lang pilitin na maging maayos yung relationship. Nakaabot ka hanggang tatlong chance. Humingi ka pa nga ng isa pa e. Isa pa. Tapos isa pa. Tapos isa pa ulit. Hanggang sa hindi ko na nabilang. Naisip ko bakit ko pa bibilangin. Ineexpect ko na na mangyayari yun ng paulit-ulit. At ako pa rin si tanga. Pinagbigyan at pinagbigyan ka pa rin. Dami na natin pinagdaanan. Lagi akong naniniwala sa sinasabi mo. Dahil ang buong akala ko, ako lang ang nagsisinungaling o nagsinungaling. Tinanong kita ilang beses. Para paninigarilyo lang ayaw mo pa aminin. Eh amoy na amoy naman. Pero ako pa rin si tanga. Naniwala na nagstop ka na. Mahal eh. Tanga talaga. Ngayon nagiisip pa ako. Tama ba yung decision ko na iwan ka? O labis na katangahan na lang kung pinakisamahan pa kita?
Sa susunod, mamahalin ko muna sarili ko. Bago ako magmahal ng iba.
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