Wednesday, August 30, 2006
On the Galaxies of my World
Currently listening to:O de bah. I'm blogging so early in the morning. I woke up sumkinda too early or earlier than usual. LOL 5:40 hurhur. Not bad. At least I can like hangout pa before I go. I think my tummy is okei now. Or so I hope. It should be. LOL Gulo. Rar.
So anyway, let's talk about my galaxies.
My mom. My God ha. I was looking for one of my foamy bras and when I couldn't find it, I asked her where it was. She said it's in my drawer. Answers like that piss me off. I mean, I won't be looking for it elsewhere because that's where it should be - in my drawer. So I said, 'simula dumating sila Ai, indi ko na alam kung san na yun mga pantie and bra ko'. Nagtaas ba naman ng boses! Sabe sabe 'sobra ka naman! wag mong sasabihin na simula dumating sila Ai chaka nagkandawalaan mga gamit mo!' Uh, haller? I never said anything about blaming them, I was just using them as like a timeframe, a point of reference. And sino kaya yun sobra jan, she was thinking na masama yun iniisip ko! Rar!! THE?! Why would my Ai take my undies?! Hai naku. Kaasar. So anyway, they're still missing. Baka dahil sa pagsabaysabay ng laba, namix na sha sa ibang pile. Whatever.
My brother. He's been coming home late because of his Red Cross thing. He's coaching their basketball team so he has to be there every game. The pissy thing about it is he's such an a55 when they lose. I mean, when he comes home, he like transforms in this supera55 that he wants to pickup a fight with me. THE?! Like I ever wanna talk when I'm pissed? I shut up. It's better that way. And perhaps he should try it. And if he can't bear losing, then he should just stop coaching. Grr. Biruin mo, pati pwesto ng laptop ko, kinaaasaran nia! Even when my lamp is on and the time I go to bed, pinapakeelaman nia. Ano sha? Kuya?! *Rolls eyes*
I was beginning to adjust to a new learning habit but towards the end, I think my attention span like shortened all of a sudden. LOL Because then, I was stuck at not knowing what to do to follow-through. Nakanaman. Basketball? Anyway, we have a test later, I just hope I remember all the enzyme -ases that catalyze whichever reaction. Speaking of basketball, I was able to watch the first game of my college vs my ex-college. LOL I think the problem with our college is that it's members are from 2 rival fraternities so pag nagtopak either one of them, shempre apektado ang teamwork, apektado ang players, apektado ang game. Hence, talo college ko now sa unang game. LOL Yesterday was game 2 daw. I didn't know and even if I did know, I wouldn't be able to see it because my tummy was hurting me. Panalo daw kami yesterday. So siguro talo kame pag nanonood ako? Hahaha! May balat sa pwet. LOOOL Meron nga ba? ;;)
So, mag 6:30 na, nakalove ka pa ba?! Hehe
Let's talk about my world.
Dee. Sometimes it scares me to know that I am overly in love (if there's such a thing as overly). Ewan I can't explain it. Basta the feeling is so overwhelming that I'm scared to lose it. I mean, if I lose it, if WE lose it, what will become of me? Selfish ko ba? Pero indi naman ata. LOL Basta meaning ko, would still there be anything else left for me, SHOULD he exit my life? Scary. LOL Pero di ba sabe nia nga, he won't leave me. Promises. Just like yun 'I'll never let them hurt you, I promise' LOL I'm not mocking anybody. It's just an example of a very recent promise that had been broken. Oh just like we broke our promise to God. Nuff na. LOL Waaa. 'Nuff na' I think that phrase hase become too uhm.. basta yun. :P I love this man too much and I really don't want anything to take him away from me. :( Gusto ko makita ichura nia na maging old and balbas-sarado and kulubot and wearing extremely thick glasses kase matigas ulo ayaw magglasses pag nagppc! Ika nga ng kanyang ama, 'anu ba yan mikael?! pangporma?!' Hur hur. I love you lotsss! :*:*:*
Gawi. I'm outta here ^^ Wish me luck ^^
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
Settle Down Inside my Love
Currently listening to: Accidentally in Love - Counting Crows
Hahaha! Shit I'm overwhelmed. I'm too happyyy. LOL
I came home yesterday during dinner time. I was settling down on my chair with a smile plastered on my face and my mum suddenly says, "Tin may problema ka. Mag-uusap tayo mamaya sa kwarto." I went still and napaisip ako kung anu ba yun. I was starting to have dinner and at the same time I was forcing her to tell me already.
The problem was my brother left the windows in our room open and it rained really hard that afternoon so my laptop got soaked. Yes, soaked.
I think they found it strange because I still had my smile on. Hahaha! My mum was telling me that my cousin didn't want to have dinner because natatakot daw sha na baka magwala ako when I find out that my laptop got wet. Hahaha!! Grabe. Sabe ni mama ganun daw ako ka nakakatakot magalit. :P
I wasn't pissed. I didn't think anything could piss me off yesterday. Not when I know that I'm OWNED. Yea, OWNING! :P
I didn't turn my laptop on until I got home this evening. I'm glad it's still running. The fan was kinda loud a while ago though. It's okei.
Hai. How do I love dee, let me count the ways. Hahaha! Bastaaa. ^^ I'm happy.. too happy that I'm scared about losing dee.. That's going to hurt real bad.. But he promised he won't leave.. :P
I'll just hope that not all promises are made to be broken. Just like we broke ours today.. We're so screwed sa Big Boss.. :( I'm sorry.. I just can't bare to see dee looking unhappy.. :( No more na.. Ayaw ko na rin magpromise baka mabreak na naman.. :( I love You po.. Sana love Mo pa rin kami..
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
And You'll Be There For me
Currently listening to: Ever the Same - Rob Thomas
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3
4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3
4 5
Fun: 1 2 3 4
5Waaa!! Hahaha!
Happeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!We were going to see each other today but then naudlot because he had to do some work in Lucena city. And he got stuck in traffic sa Calamba area.
Hai wala ako gana magwrite. I'm too tired..
I still have coughs and colds (sumkinda).
I saw my crush play ball this afternoon while waiting for my knight in shining armor to arrive. It's Science vs Medicine. We lost. My crush got cramps towards the end of the game and he was like the ONLY 3-pointer in the team so that makes him a kawalan.
I was hoping he'd arrive. Dee. But when he said he was still in Calamba when it was past 530 already, I lost all hope. LOL Sad. Were we together last 24th? I can barely remember. Wala lang. Okei lang naman eh.. I mean I understand that he's working and it's not like he's fooling around di ba? Parang aww lang kase it's the 24th!! And I wasn't with him.. :( Paconsuelo ba sa akin ni God yung makita ko crush ko magplay kaya pumayag si Dee. Hai.. Eh.. Mas okei sana kung si Dee nalang.. Indi pa ako nagsayang lang ng oras.. Tas wala pang pagod..or nawala pa pagod ko.. Oh well..
I'm tinatamad na naman mag Med.. Wala lang.. Parang it's the same thing over and over and it's not even fun.. I thought it would be fun.. Hai.. What now kalabaw? Hehe.. For Dee.. Ganun nalang.. :P
I gots to buzz.. Later.
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
God Loves Me and I Feel It
Currently listening to: Rick Price - Heaven Knows
Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3
4 5
Angelic Deeds: 1 2
3 4 5
Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5Fun: 1 2 3 4 5
I learned that I can get my a55 to school in 40 minutes. That's if I use the train. Hehe. But it doesn't mean that I should use the train ALL the time because it's super expensive. Rar. I think I have like 25 or 13 bucks left on my prepaid card.
I learned that I go to God more often when I need something from Him and since I've stopped attending Sunday masses, I go to thank Him less often.
I learned that God loves me still even though I haven't shown Him enough that I love Him, too. You see, I got colds and cough again and today I lost my voice and I was feeling lightheaded. I decided to take a cab home but when I was able to successfully hail one, there was this magshuta who stole the cab from me. I super forced myself to make a sound just to be able to say 'bastos!'. LOL I was able to and they heard it all right but they were just so evil that they were looking at me as if I did them wrong. So I just stared back at them and raised one eyebrow. LOL So I decided to take the bus instead and my God it was so puno I had to stand for a while but one manong let me sit. I forced myself to say 'thank you' and I'm sure he heard it naman. Hehe. Luckily, the seat was at the front so I wouldn't have much trouble going through the throng of standing people at the aisle just to get off the bus. God loves me.
I learned that some people are either never serious or never take me seriously. I was trying to talk to Ge this morning about his touchy-touchy thing. I had Jayson by my side to help me relay the message and even he got irritated by the way Ge acts. I was trying to tell him that he was being mahalay and malandi to me and he was just going 'hehe' and he was smiling and saying stupid stuff. I explained to him that when he does those things, may malisha because we haven't known each other for a long time like Jayson and I have. Basta I told him that if he does it again, I'm telling Dee and lagut sha. He even asked kung pinagaawayan ba raw namin sha ni Dee. T-H-E, THE! Good luck noh. Sha lang ang aawayin ni Dee. Never kame mag-aaway dahil sa kanya.
I learned that other people don't really care about other people. I think that they probably think that they're the only people who have the right to exist or the right to anything and everything under the sun over their fellowmen. And there are just people who always want the upperhand dahil gusto nila malamangan nila lagi ang kapwa nila. Bad people. Nandito pa body nila sa Earth, sinusunog na sila in hell.
I learned that I super need to study if I want to finish Med school.
I learned that I made a promise to God that is really hard to keep but I know that if I really want it, I can fulfill that promise. :)
PS. Alam mo yun feeling na feeling mo maaga ka maddedz.. Wala lang.. Kanina parang nafeel ko yun. Kase bata pa ako marami na nagsasabe sa akin na maaga ako mamamatay kase daw maliit daw tenga ko tas yung lines sa palm ko indicate na magkakasakit daw ako tas maddedz.. Feeling ko Med school ang papatay sa akin. Hahaha! Meaning ba malapit na yun? LOL Wala lang parang humihina na immune system ko kaya in a span of 3 months, twice na ako nagkasakit. Indi naman ganito dati.. Wala lang..
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
So Don't Pull On My Hand, Boy
Currently listening to:Today, on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the highest:School Productivity: 1 2 3 4
5Angelic Deeds: 1 2 3 4
5Devilish Acts: 1 2 3 4
5Fun: 1 2 3 4
5I thought I was going to be late for school because I had to go back home to poopoo. Hahaha! Sowee. So anyway, I took the train to Legarda, jeep to Echague and then Mabini to PLM. I got there on time ;) I even met a few batchmates on the way and most of them noticed my slit. LOL Sabe ko na nga mataas e..ayaw nio maniwala.. Pero okei lang kase sabe naman nila, di bale daw sexy naman daw ako. Hahaha!! Hala sige palakihin ang ulong walang laman kundi hangin. Hahaha! Haiz. O tama na.
Nagsisimula na akong bumawi sa school. 80% nakuha ko sa quiz namin kanina. Higher pa dapat if I only knew how to name a triglyceride and if I knew how to COUNT. LOL But at least, it's a good start. I need like 85 for my second shifting grade so that I wouldn't have to worry about failing my freshie year in Med school. :P And you know what? I know I can do this. I'll make it if I want to. :P
I realized yesterday that the reason why my groupmates in Physio got higher grades than me is because they have more time to study our lectures while I have to get on to finishing our written reports. It's not that I'm being bitter. It just ain't fair that I have to do all the dirty work because of this mentality: if I don't do it, who will? I think their mentality is: if I don't do it, Tin will. LOL WTF.
My puson had been hurting for like 2 weeks now. I'm late. My aunt got me Cerveza Negra to push the blood out but I'm not sure if it's going to work but I really hope it will so I won't be in pain na :(
I guess I'll have to end there. It's dinnertime. See ya ^^
PS. I love my dadee so much. mmmwahx! ^^
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Monday, August 07, 2006
Do I Have a Good Thing Right Here?
Currently listening to: Pussy Cat Dolls - Stick With You
'coz I know I have a good thing right here that's why I say 'Hey, nobody's gonna love me better, I must stick with u forever'I think I am overly stressed. Hence, the menstrual delay. A few days ago I've had thoughts of suicide. Before and after that I had wanted to quit Med school. I am emotionally bothered by the stuff going on around me such as my so-called 'friends' who know me only when they need something from me. LOL I cannot lie or hide but Dee contributes to this stress. We were crying on the phone last night. Secret na yung reason pero basta battered kami pareho. LOL Shempre alam ko affected rin sha sa mga nangyayari and sa mga ayaw mangyari na dapat nangyayari. Kami nalang nakakaalam nun. Hahaha!
Anyway, I know he'll be reading this (God knows when LOL) pero according to
MedlinePlus Medical Encyclopedia, stress and anxiety can really contribute to that. So you should help me and in turn, you'll be helping yourself rin. Di ba noh? Pero I think we should be sleeping early na. I swear. LOL So tired. Hai. Mmmwahx! Bastaaa. Let's be happy ^^
Oh guess what?! Tama ako sa case namin. It's atherosclerosis and not congestive heart failure LOL Gagung yun. Nangengeelam kase. Di tuloy sha makaimik kanina. Hahaha! Hai. Pero kasalanan ko rin. Mashado kaseng mababa ang self-esteem ko ngayon kaya duda rin ako sa mga sinasabe ko. Hahaha! Haiz. Speaking of the case, my so-called 'friends' know me na ulit because they need answers to the case. LOL Hindi nalang ako nagreply. Ano ba kala nila sa akin? Maddedz kung di ko sila pagbigyan?! Haller?! Duh?! Ai mali. T-H-E, THE?! LOL
Ito dapat yun sasabihin ko kay Dee about Ge. Gusto ko lang sana malaman kung anu ba talaga yun iniisip nun. I mean, coming from a guy rin. Gets? Parang style ba yun or whatever. Hindi naman sa nabobother ako na magkakaroon sha ng gusto sa akin or magugustuhan ko sha or whatever. Parang katakot lang. Shempre di ba kung ikaw ayaw mo dun tas ganun sinasabe sa iyo, hindi ka ba matatakot? Plus, he knows I have Dee and he's one of those people na nagaasar sa akin na when I talk about Dee daw I light up and super kilig. LOL So gets mo? What's the deal lang. Yun lang gusto ko malaman. Hindi naman para yun magselos or whatever OMG. Ayaw ko na nga sha magselos about anything eh :( Indi pa ba halata? Dee lang halata? :P
Mag-uusap ulit kami sa phone later weee ^^ Sana walang gulo para walang away. Hahaha! Wo ai Dee tai duo :P mmmmwahx!
Ai yun title pala ganyan kase wala lang. Feeling ko sometimes, he's being over malambing. Eh yun lambing pa naman nun yung nanggigigil. Hindi nia ata alam na pag sinasakal nia ako paminsan (literally), naiipit talaga yun ugat ko sa leeg tas feeling ko talaga di ako makahinga. Tas di ko alam anung pwesto gagawin ko para magets nia na masakit talaga and feeling ko talaga mamamatay ako sa ginagawa nia. Squishing my fingers is okei pero wag naman super sakit.. and biting? OMG.. :( Wala lang.. Dito ko nalang sinabe kase hindi ko alam na kung kanino ako magsasabe LOL Pero alam ko nasasabe ko naman paminsan sa kanya na masakit pero kase hindi siguro nia sineseryoso kase siguro kala nia hindi ako seryoso. Or paminsan hindi lang talaga ako nagsasalita kahit masakit.. :( Waaa nalulungkot ako amp. Ayaw ko na stop na. :( Sana wag namin to pag-awayan.. :(
I gotta go na magscan pa ako ng ECG and kymograph, maliligo, iffone si Mario at iffone si Dee.. :)Ingat kayo lahat.. malapit na daw pumutok yung Mayon..
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
I Just Can't Be Without You
Currently listening to: Mary J Blige - Be Without You
Hur hur. My life has been wild, yes? :P
I was able to have access to the answer key for the Gross Anatomy exam. Fart. If that key is for real, then I farting officially failed it. LOL What happeeen?! Haha! Rar. It was hard because I wasn't able to read much about the muscles. Hai. What more pa kaya sa practical exam part noh? Good luck sa me.
Anyway, I'm striking a deal with myself. If I fail this semester, I won't force myself to finish Med school. Perhaps it's no longer for me? Or perhaps it IS for me since I was able to get into PLM med school when I didn't try for any other school but I'm just what? I'm just too preoccupied? LOL No I'm not blaming it on Dee. He's been really good to me. He puts this train back on its tracks whenever it gets derailed. Well, it gets derailed when it wants to be in Dee's station rather than in Med station. LOL Nu buzz.
I've already prepared my mum about it. If ever lang naman. I just don't want them to get disappointed. Sabagay kelan ko ba naman sila nasatisfy? :P Oh well. Sayang. Gusto ko pa naman sana silang matuwa by being one of the top students in whatever category. Wish ko lang. LOL Para naman di ba kahit one time lang magapprove sila of me. Or matuwa. Whatever.
And so, tomorrow marks the start of the second shifting. First blood kase we have a case discussion on cardiovascular physiology. Last Friday, the darned KSP texted that she wants to meet up on Saturday so that we'd be able to discuss about the case because according to her 'ayaw ko na magkalat sa physio'. LOL Indi naman nangangamoy kaya okei lang sa akin kung magkakalat sha hahaha! Later that evening, she also said that the case was angina due to ischemia which is related to coronary heart disease but she couldn't correlate all the symptoms so she needed help. That night I was doing research on the signs and symptoms and I was trying to arrive at the main disease, keeping her ideas in mind.
I was able to send the document to them, or so I thought I was able to, because the next morning she said that I didn't attach the file. And she was asking kung nakalimutan ko lang ba talaga. And I felt like ang follow-up question to that is 'or wala ka lang talagang nagawa'. LOL TH ko noh? Wala lang. Feeling ko lang kase lately lahat ng tao masama ang isip sa akin. Hahaha! Anyway, I was able to make a concept map this morning which I disseminated to them after lunch. Some of them went online to discuss it and then she was saying mean things and I was so pissed off that I was answering her back na talaga because I couldn't take her. Ang angas nia sobra akala mo kung sinong magaling. Kung magaling sha ba't kelangan nia ng tulong ko?! Gagu pala sha eh!
So there. I hope our case discussion goes well tomorrow. I'll be reading some more about it while I'm on the phone with Dee. Hur hur. Hahaha! Kileg shet. Hahaha! Wala lang. When he's around I feel like I could absorb anything that I'm reading. But when he's not talking to me or he's not making me pansin, parang nagugulo ako. LOL Ewan. I'm sooo weird. But he doesn't know that. Na ganun un effect. Just like when he sticks out his tongue. Hahaha! Haiz. I miss that panget. Opps, correction. I miss MY panget. :P
I hope I don't need to bring Rio to school tomorrow. He's so darned heavy and it's so grr when I have it but then we're not going to use it. Gets?! Sana wag na. Rar.
Oh oh. 36 and I haven't been in good terms for a while now. I dunno why and I can't say I don't care because it bugs me. It bugs me to know that I do not know why she's like that to me. Including the bf. LOL Oh well. Hindi sila kawalan. Ang bf ang nawalan because he won't be getting any more Physio files from me. Magdusa sha. Hahaha! Shet telenovela.
Speaking of telenovela. Natutuwa ako kay Jasmine and Julian of My Girl. Pinapanood ko talaga sila, can you believe?! Hur hur. I should go now. Time to call MY Dee. :P
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