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The Tiiin Commandments
written by Demsey Ube

Dapat lagi alam ni Tin kung nasaan ka lalo na kung magkasama kayo kanikanina lang.
Dapat magsasabe agad kay Tin kung magmmigrate sa ibang bansa bago maging shota.
Dapat supportive sa studies ni Tin.
Dapat close sa mga barkada at maging kabarkada rin.
Pag ayaw ni Tin, huwag nang pilitin; kundi, alam mo na kung saan ka pupulutin.
Kung game ka magpakilala sa parents ni Tin, game rin sha.
Dapat mature mag-isip. Ayaw ni Tin magalaga ng baby damulag.
Huwag magppropose kay Tin na itatanan at papaaralin ng Medicine dahil di yan effective. (Tried and tested)
Hindi papatol si Tin sa mga totoys kahit pa may back-up na friend/s, mababasted lang ng kung ilang beses.
Love tin honestly and wholly. She can compromise naman, basta wag lang maabuso at kawawain si Tin. She will love you back. Promise. (Hindi ko to inedit. Si Dems may gawa nian :)

Wednesday, September 27, 2006
'Wag Kang Bibitiw Bigla

Currently listening to: Parokya ni Edgar - Iwanan mo na Siya (LOL stupid random list..)

For the last 2 days, all the effort that I have put into studying was worthless. The exams were oh-so-difficult that my friends (who didn't have epektos like I do :P) were saying that they're sure they have 10 questions correct. LOL 10 out of a hundred. That would be SO helpful. But when I think about it, at least they're sure they have 10 and they're positive about such things. Gets? They're not like me, sulking and pressuring my a55 off for every time I try to finish an exam. LOL I had wanted to sleep during the exam this morning but I couldn't find the right pwesto because my prof was right behind me. Hahaha! Daya ng ibang tao..they were sleeping until it was already 11!! Inggit ako.. :( Hahaha!

Hey, it's my mum's birthday..

Happy Birthday, Mami!

I texted her this afternoon. She replied naman.. 'Ty. Who is this?' LOL Cool. She doesn't know my number. It's either there's something wrong with her sim card or fone or she deliberately erased my, her daughter's, number. Pabor sa lola mo! Hindi mattext pag wala pa sa haus. LOL On the other hand, shempre sad, nanay ko di alam number ko, di ba? Oh well.. :)

My life has been super crazy lately. I think I know the prob na. Thing is, there is martial law in this house. I don't practice my democratic rights. I don't speak and I choose not to because it seems as if every word that comes out of my mouth is a lie. Either passed on to me or made by me. That's how they see it, at least. Trust me, I know. I know them more than anyone else does. And it's really sad that there's no democracy around here because I can't speak my mind. I can't tell them how I'm so pressured about not getting at least a 70 this shifting. I can't tell them that I'm having a really hard time in Med school. But I figured that even if I do tell them, they'd say that they see me play Ragnarok a lot so it would be my fault if I don't get passing grades. I don't play Ragnarok all the time. I play only after I've finished studying for my exams. When I'm so done with studying that my head hurts so bad. They think that the only thing I do is play because that's the only time they see me here in my room. That's the only time that they peek in to check on me - late at night. And so my tendency is to turn to another human being that is close to me whom I can feel affection from and get attention from. And then when I don't get it, I'd feel so alone and I feel like I'm dying. Sometimes my chest hurts so bad that I feel like I'm already having a mild heart attack. LOL No it isn't funny. I don't want to die yet. But what's my 'wants' against His will?

PS. Classes are suspended tomorrow, September 28, 2006. It's signal no. 3 over NCR. But tomorrow's my Ai Nene's hotel opening. It isn't hers, it's her in-laws' but she's helping them because she has her own hotel in Baguio. The new hotel's in Tagaytay and my family's going. My mum was asking that if my bro and I were coming with them if classes are really suspended tomorrow (kulit nia noh?). I said, 'Yes. Sama-sama tayo mastranded.' And I meant it. I dunno. I'd rather be stranded with my family in such a bad weather than be left alone in this house feeling mighty fine. I need human contact so bad that I feel like I'd go mad anytime soon.

Tiiin* was starless at 6:13 PM

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