Monday, August 30, 2004
Haaay...
Nakakainis ang internet connection namin lately. As in. Halos isang minuto bago magload ang isang webpage. Nasabi pang nakacable internet kami. Shet. Eh daig pa yata ako ng prepaid. Shet talaga. Gumising pa naman ako ng maaga-aga ngayon para makapaglaro ng Ragnarok dahil napakalag nung weekend. Nakapaglaro naman ako pero shet ulit. Biglang naglag. Hindi tuloy ako nakapaglevel-up. 83% na nga eh. Shet talaga ulit. Feeling ko nga pagkatapos ng entry na to, baka hindi pa to mapost at mag page cannot be displayed. Shet shet shet.
Sabi ni Spark addict na daw talaga ako dahil nagbibilang ako ng oras ng laro at naiinis na ako pag hindi ako nakakapaglaro. Nakakabitin kasi. Nagset na kasi ako ng oras ng laro ko eh - 8am to 10am, tapos biglang past 9am lang, lag na. Grr. Shempre nagexpect na ako na mageenjoy ako ng dalawang oras. Hindi ka-adikan ang nararamdaman ko, ka-bitinan. Excited na kaya ako mag-assassin! Grr talaga. At isa pang grr.
Nung sabado, hindi ako nag-aral, naglinis ako ng bahay. Sinubukan ko kasi yun bagong bili na Pronto Wax and Shine ata yun. Basta yung ipapahid lang tapos wala ng scrub-scrub para kumintab. Anyway, palpak. Sabi ni mami baka daw kulang ang lagay ko. Feeling ko naman hindi kasi sabi sa instructions, isang kutsarita nung product for every 2ftx2ft ply ng sahig. Eh ang ginawa ko is, derederechong buhos kada marble. Mwahaha!! Hm.. Pero ewan ko kung kulang pa din yun.
Bakit ba nahihilig ako magsulat sa Tagalog?? Simula magbasa ako ng "Bakit Baliktad Magbasa ng Libro ang mga Pilipino" ni Bob Ong, parang lalo akong namulat sa pagiging Pilipino ko. Kahit na half-Chinese ako (or siguro mga one fourth na lang), nararamdaman ko ang pagka-Pinoy ko lalo na pagdating sa pagkain - mas gusto ko ang mga lutong pinoy, mas masarap kumain sa turo-turo at pag nagiisip ang utak ko, Tagalog ang gamit nito (or minsan TagLish). Pero ano nga ba ang basehan ng pagiging Pilipino? Pilipino nga ba ako ngayong naaasar ako na naging Pilipino ako at hindi nalang pure Chinese? Pilipino nga ba ako ngayong nagpaplano ako kung paano mapapadali ang pagmigrate namin sa Singapore? Pilipino nga ba ako ngayong nanggagalaiti ako sa mga masasamang katangian ng Pinoy?? Porket Tagalog ang gamit ko, ibig-sabihin ba noon Pilipino na ako??
Kahapon habang tinutulungan ko si mami sa pagluto-luto niya, nakwento ko sa kanya ang aking plano. Sabi ko, ang tagal yata bago ako maging doktor, gusto ko na kasi magmigrate tayo sa Singapore. Gusto ko makaipon kaagad. Si mami muna ang ipapadala ko dun, sunod yung kapatid kong pulpol, tapos ako. Sabi ko sa kanya, masama ba na hindi ko sinasama ang tatay ko sa mga plano ko? Sabi ni mami, hindi ko daw maaabot ang mga pangarap ko kung ganon ako mag-isip. Sabi ko naman sa kanya, di ba sabi ni papa pagkatapos namin magcollege, iiwan na niya tayo? Eh di hindi ko alam kung anong balak niya sa buhay. Kung gusto niya sumama sa Singapore, e di isama, kung ayaw niya, huwag. Tama naman daw yun isip ko sabi ni mami.
Tama din ang pagkakabasa mo. Pulpol na naman ang kapatid ko. Away-bati, away-bati na naman kami. Totoo lang, nakakasawa na. As in sukang-suka na ko sa ugali niya. Kapag may kailangan sha sa kin, ang bait niya, kapag wala, hala sige! Hay nako. Sabi ko nga, ayaw ko na magka-ayos kami para hindi na kami nag-aaway. Mwahaha. I'm so evil.
Yung kaklase ko, nagprint ng block directoy kung saan nakalista ang mga email address namin at cell number. Kagabi, guess mo kung sino nag-miss call?! Si PARE. Kafal noh?! Ano kala niya, magttext ako para magtanong kung anong kailangan niya?! MANIGAS. Sabi nga ni Spark, may ibang guys daw na ganun. Bet daw niya na alam na ni PARE yung bagong cell number ko before pa tapos since meron na nung directory, nakahanap lang sha ng dahilan o excuse para lang ma-prove na hindi niya ni-"research" o inalam ang cell number ko - nakuha lang niya thru the directory.
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Sunday, August 22, 2004
Haller!
I'm feeling nationalistic today kaya magtatagalog ako..err..taglish pala.
Napakahectic ng araw na to. Pagmulat ng mata ko, may utos na kaagad sa akin ang dakila kong ina. Nag-alay kasi kami sa mga mumu. Alam mo naman, sa chinese, maraming inaalayan. Ang pinakanakakahilong gawin ay ang pagtupi nung papel na pangsunog. Ako lahat nagtupi non. Gosh. Mahigit sampung bundle yon, para lang sunugin.
Pagkatapos kumain, inutusan pa ako ulit at nagtrabaho hanggang mga alas-dos. Tsaka pa lang ako nakaligo. Wahaha. Ang antut! Bago mag alas-tres nagsimula na akong mag-aral ng projectile motion. Natutuwa naman ako dahil dalawa lang ang mali ko. Wish ko lang sa exam, mga ganon lang ang tanong. Nakagawa na rin ako ng assignment sa Biostats na para sa martes pa. Ayoko kasi ng nagagahol sa oras. Ayoko mag-cram.
Nakwento ko ba na naiyak ang prof ko sa Biostats nung nakaraang biyernes? Yung isa ko raw kasing kaklase, hindi satisfied sa grade na nakuha nya kaya nalukot niya yung papel sa harap nung teacher. Hindi naman niya hangaring mang-offend. Banas lang siguro siya sa sarili niya kaya ganon. Tapos, nung naglelecture yung teacher, may sumigaw ng sagot nang pagalit. Kaya ayun. Naaawa ako sa prof kasi kahit halatang hirap siya magturo, pinipilit niya tsaka mabait siya talaga. Ayan tuloy, simula next meeting, reporting na kami. Kami na ang magtuturo sa sarili namin. Good luck.
Iniwan ako ni Spark. Hindi man lang ako tinext kung sasama ba ako magbadminton o hindi. Eh nung biyernes sabi ko gusto ko sumama. Pinayagan nga ako e. Tapos biglang wala na siya sa bahay, pumunta na kela Pat. Wala. Siguro nga ayaw na niya. Tinext niya kasi ako ng past 12. Eh di ba nagtratrabaho ako non tsaka yung cellphone ko na sa taas. Hindi daw kasi ako nagrereply kaya akala niya, namasyal ako o ano. Nung nakauwi na siya, nagtext siya, sorry daw hindi niya ako nasama, matutulog na daw siya. Hay ewan. Bahala siya. Ayoko na dagdagan yung mga iniisip ko. Kahit wala naman talaga akong inisip kundi RagnaroK at school.
Nakakadepress ang mga nangyayari lately:
~ Yung lola ko, pinakabit ng magaling na kapatid ng nanay ko sa respirator. Nakakahinga na nga siya ulit ng mag-isa niya e sabay ginanon niya. Ayan tuloy. Nakadepende na naman ang lola ko sa respirator. Sh*t talaga. Paano gagaling yon?!
~ Magkakagulo na naman sa compound namin. Yung asawa ng magaling na kapatid ng nanay ko ang nagdudulot nito, dahil nakalipat na sila ng bahay sa labas ng compound. Marami kasi siyang kaaway dito sa loob. Pero wala na nga siya, gusto pa din niya ng gulo. Ambot. Nagsisimba pa yon linggo-linggo. Mapapaisip ka.
~ Ang dami pa. Masyado lang mahaba at siguro medyo personal na yung iba. Ewan ko ba. What's wrong with the world? What's wrong with our neighborhood? What's wrong with our home? Kailan ba dadating ang pagbabago?
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Friday, August 20, 2004
Undulated Disposition
Sleepy. I woke up a few minutes after 5am, did my daily routine and set off for school before the sclock hit 6am. I really didn't feel like going to school, especially today since the only "important" thing we're having was our IT long quiz. Second, classes will be cut at 1pm to give way to the fumigation of the school. Translation: No lab. Anyway, we didn't take any test. Our friggin' prof didn't come to class. He said he had something important to do. Ummkay. Whatever.
KILIG! I was walking along city hall wondering if I would meet Pepper. But then I told myself that I shouldn't be wishing for something like that. I got on the PLM jeep, since it was too early anyway, and when I glanced outside, I saw him! Tin's brain:
AHHH!!! Hahaha! My knight in shining gray cap! As I was getting off the jeep, I found myself wishing again. Tin's brain:
I hope he walks a bit faster so we could meet at the gate or something. We didn't meet at the gate. BUT we ascended the stairs to the third floor "together". Translation: I was on the leftmost side while he was on the rightmost side. Hahaha! I still couldn't say hi even though we know each other and we see each other a lot in school. I'm too afraid to humiliate myself. I might not find my voice to say even the word "hi".
Happy! Well, of course I was happy. I call it a Happy Pepper Day! Hahaha! (I don't want to disclose his name again because too many people already know that I'm crushing on him. Somebody who knows him might see this. Talk about paranoia. But then, better safe than sorry.) I actually saw him a LOT of times yesterday and found myself dumbfounded during Physics class that I couldn't answer the seatwork. I actually thought that I shouldn't see him when I still have tough subjects to attend. Then again, I saw him this morning, but I still was a bit
bibo during Stats class. Hm..
**Intermission: Pepper-Related**
Pepper's best friend is my classmate. During Physics class, Earl went to sit next to me while she (the bestfriend) was on his left side. She and Earl had been classmates since high school, so they were talking about Pepper who was also their classmate back then. Whatever. The thing was, she was smiling at me..grinning, to be exact. I think she thinks I like Pepper. She asked Earl if I liked Pepper. And I went, "
Ha? Sino nagsabi?" Luckily, I remembered that Pepper had told Earl that he thinks that I'm crushing on him. So I saved myself, "
Di ba, sha nagsabi na may crush daw yata ako sa kanya?" She went, "
Kapal talaga non!". Good one. I just hope I wasn't blushing when I said anything to her.
Depressed.. Spark picked me up after school. Since he had the car, he thought about dropping by at Pat's office, his barkada. I didn't say anything. Yesterday, when I told him that my classes today will be cut, he just said he'll pick me up and take me home. I asked if I could go to his place, so I can play mahjong with his lola's or something. He said no. Anyway, we went to Pat's office and we talked about whatever. I feel awkward around the guy. He made me feel like he couldn't trust me because I'm just a kid or something. I tried to borrow his USB stick, but when I started to touch it, he took it away. Just as he did with his handphone. But when Spark took those from him, he easily gave them. What's with that? Whatever.
Napapansin ko:
© Yumayabang yata ako at nagiging airhead (airhead = I'm-too-good-for-you attitude). Ayoko. Humble ako. Humble ako. Humble ako.
©Inuutu-uto lang ako ng kapatid ko para makapagpagawa sha ng website para sa IT class nya. Mabait sha pag may kailangan sha. Lagi na nga sha sa computer, pero pag ako na gumagamit, pinapalayas nya ko. Katulad ngayon. Hmm. Nagiging salbahe yata.
© Nagiging antukin ako. Takaw sa tulog.
© Parang tinatamad na ako mag DL. Di na ako mashado nag-aaral. Katulad kagabi, nanood lang ako ng TV. Nakakapanibago. Kela Spark lang ako nakakanood ng TV e.
© Nalalayo ako sa mga kaibigan ko sa ICA na lagi kong nakakausap sa YM. Minsan ayoko magstart ng conversation kasi baka wala sila sa mood makipag-usap. Minsan naman, ako naman yun wala sa mood.
© Kapag pinapansin ni mami yung mga mali ko, nababawasan ang self-esteem ko. Baka ito yung pangontra sa pagiging "airhead" ko. Di kaya napansin nya rin yon?
© Mashado na naman yata ako nahihilig kay Pepper. Dapat magmunimuni na ako ulit-uliting sabihin ang "may boyfriend ako.. may boyfriend ako..".
© Lagi nalang ako nananampal ng barkada, lalo na kung nagmumura sila. "Mommy" na tuloy ang tawag sa akin nung iba. Pero kahit na. Di ako dapat nananakit.
© Parang "ayaw" na sa akin ni Spark. Ilang araw ko na kinokondisyon ko naman yun sarili ko na kaya ko nang wala sha. Tingin ko naman, kaya ko. Kung maghiwalay kami, ok lang. Mabuti na yun sha na lang makipaghiwalay kesa ako. Ang hinihintay ko lang naman strike 3 e. Kung sa kanya, naka strike 3 na ako, ok lang.
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Sooo Sleepy...
We had our Biochemistry midterm exam today. I only started reviewing last night, so I had only 2 hours to do that since I want to get enough sleep. Anyway, I was praying a bit harder that the exam would get postponed. HAH! I wish. If I fail that exam, of course, I have no one else to point the finger to except to meself. I should have studied last Sunday but since I slept until 7pm and played RagnaroK until 11:30pm, it IS my fault. Oh well. No use crying over spilled milk. I will study. I swear. Study time will no longer be spent for RagnaroK.
Ok. What have we? I just got home from Spark's place. I ate lunch there and played pinoy mah-jong with his lola's. Now I'm here, multi-tasking - washing our clothes (with the machine of course, does that count?), blogging, downloading OPM stuff from my new kazaa and cooking my amah's food. I plan to sleep. Yes. The flavor of the month is SLEEP.
I wanted to play but then I only have 2 hours and a half left on my account. I play for 2 hours at Adam's every Thursday and I spend only 50 bucks on Ragnarok load every week, so if I want to play, I have to stop before I eat my 2 hours. Budgeted and disciplined. But I really can't explain what happened last Sunday.
Tomorrow. Ahh.. The supposedly day of relaxation of BioIII students - not. I have midterms to study for and I want to study, study, study because I want to be DL, DL, DL. Am I making sense?? I feel like half of my brain's asleep already..
Kaantok talaga.. especially with this kind of weather!
I've been thinking about my CD business. I think I'd like to do that again. But this time, I'll have a lot of things changed. Like, I will show them a list of the songs I got, and they can make their lists from there. Unlike before, I only charged what 30 bucks a cd, anything they want
pa. I'm thinking,
lugi pala ako doon. Wala e. 'Kala ko 'pag intsik marunong mag-negosyo, ako lang 'ata 'di marunong. Kapatid ko pa nagsabi sa 'kin na lugi ako. And to think, he's younger! HAHAHA!! Oh well. Ciao!
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
RAWR! My internet connection's too slow. So I'm doing this through e-mail. Gosh. So hi-tech.
WEE! My mum bought me a fuchsia pink Pucca handbag. I'm taking it to school tomorrow. I bet kakanchawan ako ng barkada ko when they see it. Haha! Who cares. I like Pucca. ^-^
HMM... We have not taken our Physics exam. Hahaha! Super delayed na, bukas pa lang. I was supposed to study when I went up to my room at around 5pm. I read the bible for a while and I felt like my head hurt, so I laid down on my bed. The next thing I know, it was already 7pm. Hahaha. What's up with that.. Am I THAT tired?? Nah. Lately, I feel like I'm too lazy to do anything. But I still study, of course. Pwede ba namang hindi?! :P
YAY! Level 50 na yung thief ko sa RagnaroK!! Just 3 more level-ups to go, and voila! I got meself a kick-ass assassin! ^-^
OOOH! People have been sending me messages on friendster, asking me to add them to my list. Cool, huh? I don't know them. Some of them aren't even connected to my network. Dunno how they found me but I can always make room for new friends. Careful, careful though. ^-^
Not much has been happening.. When I got free time, I play Ragnarok, study, go see my amah..just do whatever I feel like doing.. and yah, don't forget SLEEP! Haha!
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Just Two Fingers Intertwined
He's done it twice today. If he does it again, goodbye.
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Monday, August 09, 2004
Woohoo!!!
My amah's finally getting out of the hospital today. ^-^ I'm SOOO happy! ^-^
Today's my midterm exam on physics. Sadly, I'm suffering from lao sai.. So, I'd probably go to school, take my midterm exam and go home. I'm not attending my Filipino class anymore. -_-
My internet is so slooow. -_-;
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Sunday, August 08, 2004
May Sumbong Ako..
Yesterday morning, my brother went out to school or to play Ragnarok somewhere. Before he came back, he texted me if I wanted him to dropby Jollibee to buy food for lunch. I replied as soon as I got the message telling him what I wanted to eat. He came home empty handed, blaming me that I took too long to reply. (But I'm guessing he didn't check his phone before he set off for home. He just wanted to point the finger at me.) He had some McDo delivered, and to get it to reach Php150, he ordered food for his merienda as well. He had lunch by himself and went upstairs. And guess what? He didn't order anything for me.
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
A Tinge of Victory
My YM status currently reads:
..feeling delighted, ecstatic, elated, exultant, joyous, jubilant, sparkling, thrilled and upbeat..
Why, you ask? I aced our Physics exam. ^-^ As in no mistakes. As in perfect. ^-^ I feel so light. You should have seen the looks on the faces of my enemies. They kept quiet when my name was called but they applauded when the second highest was recognized. Grades like that should be a big slap to them. Ahh.. sweet victory.
But, aye, I am my worst enemy.
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Wednesday, August 04, 2004
What's On?
© Spark and I are on. ^-^ His schedule changed from 9pm-5am to 1am-9am and his days-off are now on Mondays and Tuesdays so he picks me up after school. Quality time means keeping the fire burning.
© Amah's still in the hospital. Sometimes I just can't help but cry when I see her. I just don't agree that she deserves to be in her condition. They've done a lot of tests on her and they couldn't see anything wrong with her. My diagnosis, she's really getting old.. which no medicine can cure.. When I recall those times, we spent together.. I realized how fast time really flies..
© My discman's still broken. I'm actually planning to buy an mp3 player with FM radio. I found it. But I plan to buy it when my amah's out of the hospital. I just don't want to spend on non-important things right now. So if in case my amah needs the money, we won't have trouble.
© My 1.5 goal is still on. ^-^
Minsan nga lang, nakakatamad pumasok kapag tamad ang prof's mo. Yesterday, the only prof who showed up was our last class, Biostats, which was at 10:00-11:30! Sucks,
pare. We wake up early for our 7am class, no prof shows up??
Ay nako..
What's Off?
© My Peewee syndrome is almost gone. I don't get much
kilig anymore and I don't go out of my way just to see him. (e.g. accompany the boys to their washroom on the third floor where Peewee's classes are held)
© Panitikan is REALLY boring for me. But I have no choice. I have to study or I might not achieve my 1.5 just because of it.
I guess that's it. I have to go to the hospital now. It's a Wednesday. The only day I get to see my amah because of my freakin' schedule. Well, at least I still get to see her. ^-^ Bye now..
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