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The Tiiin Commandments
written by Demsey Ube
- Dapat lagi alam ni Tin kung nasaan ka lalo na kung magkasama kayo kanikanina lang.
- Dapat magsasabe agad kay Tin kung magmmigrate sa ibang bansa bago maging shota.
- Dapat supportive sa studies ni Tin.
- Dapat close sa mga barkada at maging kabarkada rin.
- Pag ayaw ni Tin, huwag nang pilitin; kundi, alam mo na kung saan ka pupulutin.
- Kung game ka magpakilala sa parents ni Tin, game rin sha.
- Dapat mature mag-isip. Ayaw ni Tin magalaga ng baby damulag.
- Huwag magppropose kay Tin na itatanan at papaaralin ng Medicine dahil di yan effective. (Tried and tested)
- Hindi papatol si Tin sa mga totoys kahit pa may back-up na friend/s, mababasted lang ng kung ilang beses.
- Love tin honestly and wholly. She can compromise naman, basta wag lang maabuso at kawawain si Tin. She
will love you back. Promise. (Hindi ko to inedit. Si Dems may gawa nian :)
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Uncertainty
n 1: being unsettled or in doubt; "the uncertainty of the outcome" [syn: uncertainness] [ant: certainty] 2: the state of being unsure of something [syn: doubt, incertitude, dubiety, doubtfulness, dubiousness] [ant: certainty]
I've been having a lot of major mood swings these past few weeks. One minute I'm all excited and happy about something and then the next minute I'm just too depressed.
Yesterday, my friends and I were talking and Fanny just had that urge to speak out sharply. Too sharply that it made me cry. He said two things:
'Mababaw ka kase.'
'Tinatanggap mo lang yung gusto mong marinig.'
I cried because of the first one. I got hurt. He said that the truth hurts. I say if it's true, why should it hurt? When it comes to making me happy with material things, true, I'm mababaw. When it comes to other things? I'm not sure. I'm just too complicated that even I don't understand myself sometimes. And it's not true that I only accept what I want to hear. If it were, I would have been mad because of what he said. Di ba?! But I'm not. :)
I really appreciate and love my friends for what they're trying to teach me. Sometimes they just have to make me cry to make me realize that something's not right for me. I mean there's that part of me screaming, squirming, trying to get out and tell me that some things need to be corrected but I just won't listen. And I don't know why.
'Mas masaya ka nun nung kasama mo si MF.'
It's true. I think everyone I know knows that I still love him. I don't know why but I do. I tried to let him go but I just couldn't because I wouldn't. We barely talk so no one could really say that (I am/he is/we are) trying to get us back together. We know each other's number but we rarely send SMS to each other. But that's really not the issue. It is not an issue.
All I'm saying is, I am involving innocent people in my ridiculously complicated life and I feel that I am becoming the most selfish, unfair b*tch there ever could be. And as much as I would like to let go of these innocents, I feel that I couldn't because I'm uncertain of what could happen or what could be in the future. It would just shatter my frozen heart into tiny pieces as it slips from my grasp and lands painfully on the floor. But the pain would no longer be felt as it had been frozen then.
I want to live without fear. Live freely. But I am afraid of what the future may be, of what could happen and I'm afraid of being alone. What now? Maybe I should start living. REALLY living. Maybe I should start attacking my fears and try to overcome them one by one. Maybe I should start by living alone..
Tiiin* was starless at
11:14 PM
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